Our little darling is so cute when he sleeps. Fat cheeks too!

Million dollar question: why is it difficult for babies to sleep on their own?

I've been coaxing Jon for the past 3hours with all methods I know. Let him suckle, rock and sing to him, give him a pacifier, drain his energy by letting him "talk" to me. Nothing works. He would sleep on my chest after suckling and wake up from his nightmare almost immediately after putting him in the cot. I've also tahan and let him suckle for past 2 plus hours until I'm hurting now. Acks. Give up and let MIL carry him after I went to kitchen trying to wash the pacifier while holding a crying baby. Hopefully Jon doesn't 'smell' me since it's MIL carrying him and he would sleep soon. Jon's tired but can't seem to fall into deep sleep. I hope things would improve soon cos it's already past midnight; way past normal bedtime for babies. God help us :)

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Record amount of milk I've pumped in less than 10mins: a total of 70ml! Woohoo! Thank God for answered prayers!! :) :) :)

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Feel so shitty as a mother. Baby keep crying and we can't seem to soothe him. And I feel like it's always my fault that baby is crying hysterically. How much milk is enough? I don't know. Why baby refuses to drink and thereafter cry for milk like I deprived him of a feed? I also don't know. I just sustain myself by praying everyday that hopefully today will be better and that I can have things under control and not have baby cry and frighten everyone, especially the old folks. I wonder if I will regret to say this but I do at times wish that baby is at a age that can talk and express his needs. Then I know how to soothe and help him develop. Anyhow I just feel damn shitty about myself and I think blogging is the seemingly only way of letting it out. I don't dare cry to let it out so that everyone around me need not worry or get irritated with me. Back to my office life slogan when it gets tough - suck it up..

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Compare my tiny little feet against mommy's palm!

Ahh I can't stop playing with Jonathan's feet! They are so small n cute!! :D

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I'm so biased but our son is so cute, especially when he's sound asleep!! :D

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Dear Lord, pls help Jonathan to sleep soundly everyday and not to be awoken in shock or cry in the middle of his sleep. Grant him good rest so that he can grow healthily and be a happy baby. This we pray daily in Jesus' name, Amen.

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So frustrating! Why does he keep crying for comfort? I've tried all e 'soft methods' so using the 'hard method' now and ignore his crying lest he uses that to demand his way in future. So I closed the door not to disturb my in-laws but well they heard the cries. They came to the room and I didn't open the door else it spoils the intention of training Jonathan that he cannot demand things with his cries. I think my in-laws thought I was I'll-treating the grandson. Opened the door after 10mins to sterilize the pacifier and explain that we cannot always respond to each cry or carry him immediately becos this is not sustainable in the long run, especially if I'm back at work and the 'human pacifier' is not around. Well, the 'hard method' finally worked and Jonathan is wide awake but lying on his bed quietly. I'm just waiting for him to slp..

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So proud of my Pork Chop for being a wonderful coach to me when I'm having the blues, and also for being an amazing Dad to our little one. From swaddling, cradling, bathing to feeding little Jon, Pork Chop can do it all :) so thankful that my hubby is way better than most others.

The past week has been full of surprises. From adjusting to new responsibilities as a parent, to breastfeeding woes, sleepless nights, to the joys of witnessing how amazing God's creation is (I.e. our son Jonathan).

Even though he can drive us nuts with his endless cries and screams, these can be forgotten as easily as when his mouth twitches into a smile or when he shows us his 'milk-drugged look' after a feed.

I guess it is a matter of getting into the groove and continuous learning of Jon's needs/wants, cries for help vs cries for attention before we will find even more satisfaction and meaning to our sleep depravation. I shall remember what Michelle said - when the baby eventually smiles back at you, everything is worth it.

God grant us much love, patience and faith in our parenthood! :)

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Jonathan, are u coming out soon? I've been going to e loo twice - with a 2.5hr gap in between. Is this a certain pattern that is a sign of your arrival? Jialat.. I can't tell becos my tummy doesn't really hurt THAT bad.. Can't be my fish soup lunch that is making me visit the toilet ever so often rite... :|

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While we have quite serious problems with our nation'a public transport system, it doesn't mean people should take out their anger at innocent bus drivers.

Two days in a row that I've seen bus drivers being scolded (or some might say verbally abused). Yesterday, a driver turned off the air con for a while becos a passenger said the temperature was too cold and the bus driver could only turn it off as he couldn't adjust the temp. Thereafter another passenger came and scolded the driver for suffocating him by not turning the air con on. Poor driver tried to explain but the passenger just didn't listen and got upset. Today, another poor driver had to get people to move in a crowded bus else the automatic sensors at the door would detect a human and not let him close the door. Ignorant passengers didn't listen to him and just stood where the sensor was, and the doors couldn't close for a while.

Sometimes I really think we, as passengers, ought to be reasonable and fair. Certain things are beyond the poor person's control, so don't vent your frustrations on him/her just because he/she is wearing a uniform bearing the company logo which you dislike.

I think people are really not considerate and ungracious these days. If not for the fact that I'm heavily pregnant and likely to fall in the bus, I would have given up my seat to either of the two old persons that have been standing near me. Others around me are just blind - Singapore's one of the nations with high myopia, but I think we should classify them as blind (or socially blind). How can you not see these two elderly folks standing for so long?! Even if you are glued to your smart phones or gadgets, surely you can see them from the corner of your eyes!!

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Little Jonathan, Mommy concludes that you like to move and find yourself some space whenever I sit down. Haha! Mommy's tummy not giving you enough space huh? ;)

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Hmm the strange numb feeling on my left thigh is back. Felt it for the first time yesterday at home and it came back today during lunch.. :S hope it's nothing wrong

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Jonathan, haha are your exercising in mommy's tummy today? You have been moving and kicking for the past 3hours.. Time to take break and rest yah. Mommy also needs to rest and not keep seeing her belly twitch so abruptly. :) but that said, it's nice to know you are having fun inside my belly too!

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Of all days that the office toilet runs out of toilet paper and/or is clogged up when I'm having bad tummy ache. Arghh!

Dear Jonathan, mommy thinks you are growing well and squeezing my bowels more actively. Haha I don't really know whether to be happy that you are taking up a lot of space in my tummy and making me visit the toilet ever so often. :P

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Thank God for His many blessings each day!! :D Dear and I got our HDB ballot number last nite and this morning two kind Samaritans helped me navigate thru a packed train to a seat that one of them gave up for me. Hee hee.. Feel so blessed and well looked after by God. PTL!!

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Junior! You are weighing 1.2kg today and doc says you are growing well. Yay!! :) Dad and I have also decided on naming you Jonathan as you are a gift from God. May you grow to be strong in faith, a person of wisdom and righteousness, a man of strength, mercy and love. Can't wait to hold you in our arms!! :) :)

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Haha I'm on MC today and turning on YouTube to play Sunday school songs hoping Junior can hear them. Haha! I'm even sourcing websites where I can download the songs and burn into a CD for him to play at home or in e car next time. Lol.. I'm thinking too far ahead.. But I'm still secretly hoping he can hear the songs that I've been humming to myself :P

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Junior! Yay we saw you again last Friday! Haha you cheeky little fella, kept staying in your comfortable position and hide your face from Daddy and Mommy..

Anyway, everyone is very excited about your arrival! Both your grandmas have taken out all the baby clothes, bought you things like books (even though it'll be a while more before you can read). Haha!

Next time when Daddy talks to you or puts his hand on Mommy's belly, give a good twitch or kick to let Daddy feel yah. :)

Continue growing healthily, normally and happily in Mommy's ever-growing belly yah. Remember to talk to God in your own way too.

Xoxoxoxo,
Daddy & Mommy

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