Listening to Jamie Callum is such a treat. Not a good lookin chap, but a real talent with the piano. Guess I never had that some amount of musical inclination all my life. I like music, but I guess I just can't 'create' music like some others can. Know a whole lot of crazily talented ppl who just have it at their fingertips. So cool aint it? Yah ppl like me who don't have the little gift can just sit back and admire those who form bands. Haha I don't even qualify being the backups. Probably just the audience. But it's still nice to listen to bands. Maybe it's time to listen to more indie stuff.

Rooney's great. The band featured in OC for ignorant ppl. Might have stepped on the toes of ignorant ppl, but who cares man. It's nice to listen to songs tt match your mood. Oh but no country music or dance tracks pls. Country may be classic but ain't my cuppa. Dance is just plain lousy. Nothing great, all electric beats or whatever you call it. Off to my musical wonderland. A place tt I can only participate as the audience.

i got the iPod shuffle!!!! yippee! haha went with the girls to mac@orchard yest. and i ended up pre-ordering it. sad to say, i think it wasn't as nice as i expected it to be. but hey it's an iPod, so whatever. so i thought i burned a hole in my pocket for buying it. not sth really a necessity but really a want. the surprising thing is dad shoved me the money to make the purchase when i came home! ahhahha, love ya bits dad! i feel kinda bad cuz i'm earning (altho it's pittance compared to what i spend) and i ought to like pay for it myself. guess i'll make it up when i get my miserable salary. a treat? hmm, everyone's sick at home. maybe not. will see how. but for now, i'm eagerly waiting for apple to gimme a ring to say tt the shipment's arrived! hoho, so exciting..

it's so nervewrecking to have to live with a slow computer bugged with all sorts of viruses. having to restart and disconnected from using the net totally kills me. urgh. gosh, it's as bad as listening to lousy auditions on idol tv. bleah. wished i had some elder brother who can do all the computer IT thing for me. being a complete idiot at this formating thing doesn't help all the time. boo..

now tt i'm hearing more ppl tell me maybe i-pod shuffle ain't tt good. i'm a bit skeptical now. but yeah, i'll arm myself with more knowledge when i get by mac shop to ask. probably over this or next weekend. i'm so superficial cuz i really like the look of i-pods. hmm... how how how..

mp3 players galore.. boy, there's this new i-shuffle from the i-pod series. so cute! it's so slim n nice. pearly white. and the price is super affordable! $178 for 512mb!!!!! ahhh... i'm in a great dilemma whether i shld buy it. it's much cheaper than creative i think. so far, creative stuff are ex. altho you're paying for quality pdts obviously. wonder if the i-shuffle takes wma files or purely mp3 files. whether it's compatible with windows computer. and if i need to buy additional programs to enable file transfer. oh gosh, i'm in this mood of splurging..

it's hard when u're not working and plan to do so much. going to thai mission trip this yr, europe backpack when i grad (which is next yr) or kathmandu if we can't get the funds for a gd trip to europe. yeah, so how? shld i just empty my already little salary frm research work to buy this i-shuffle? ahh... it's not a necessity, but it looks like such a good deal. unless someone tells me there is really a better deal outside. help..

this has been a weekend of learning about work n rest. first it was during bible study. then again it was touched upon in sermon. as usual, God speaks to me in very scary ways. He sorta 'scolds' me through my bible study lah, daily devotion lah, sermons.. yeah. every possible way. (can't imagine what happens if He speaks to me in a voice. think i'll faint)

so it's a session on how to really manage my time. to take time off and recollect myself; to spend time away from all other worries; to put those worries unto His feet: to rest in Him. it's really what i need now. it's been a rather packed week, yet again. and i'm starting to feel kinda drained having to juggle with so much. i've been thinking about my own personal time nowadays. given the character i am, i value it a lot. at least to have time to spend with my friends. so i guess this is it. i'm taking a break from some stuff and hanging out with pkg on friday. maybe just to new creation for a change of environment. it's time to visit other churches.

as for now, i'm going to just try and take things easy. not to rush myself through things. smell the roses and admire the scenery tt comes by. going to dream more and shut an eye on things.

i really shldn't be blogging right now. but since my dad's in the shower, it's a great excuse to go online (and get stuck there subsequently)

life's kinda getting to be a drag now. it's so darn routine. sad thing is, despite it being so routine, i'm still unable to catch up. it's sch work, research, church... i'm like elasti girl being stretched, not to the max yet but enuff to make me scream. yikes! almost no more social life. and i'm not even in rugby anymore. can't imagine if i'm playing (hahha if they don't kick me out first) guess i can be a 24hr running clock if it really happens.

sheesh, haven't met up with ruthie since she came back like ages ago. sorry babe, we'll meet up on thurs k? i'm really really sorry dear. supposed to like hang out with you soooo long ago. we'll make it up with the short catch up time on thurs yah. it's back to those times of walking ard aimlessly and cracking silly jokes abt ppl. hahaha... my evil twin. just kiddin. =)

ok, dad's outta the showers, so it's time to bathe! oh btw, listen to pug jelly. they're great!

we whine all day that life's unfair. why are some ppl given such an easy life yada yada, you get my idea. but flipping thru the papers, watching the news and hearing of stories of ppl stuck in those tsunami hit areas makes us look really pathetic. here we are enjoying the comforts and soaking in areas of life we take for granted. our security, peace, family, friends n loved ones. sometimes ppl ought to be smacked to shake em out of their little bubbles of 'me and my own world' those ppl are stuck and their lives are thrown into some big state of upheveal, worrying abt where their families are, how they're gonna turn out of that pit of life. if we're whining and complaining over why we don't have a holiday, that new i-pod mp3 player, the latest mobile and what not, i think we're in the wrong direction.

our very breath is the most basic thing we take for granted. ppl die in the most unfathomable manner. name it, i think someone in the world has died of tt manner. choking on fishballs, getting struck by a flying flower pot, being banged by a vehicle while walking on the pedasterian path...

why does God allow such a disaster to happen? a question that was popped to paster ch. guess there isn't a firm answer anyone can give, not even the highest priest or bible scholar. it's just God's plan and we'll never fully understand it. the only thing we're sure of is that God is soverign in all situations. a unshakable pillar of support and strength. our dependence. so easy to say, but all so hard to do it with fullest of all conviction. we're just control freaks, trying to get a hold on every aspect of our lives, to twitch it into the plan we've mapped out for ourselves. mind us, man plans but our God directs. so bless all mankind (including myself) who try to get a grip on our life's plans. guess we can only go forth in fullest faith.

oh she of little faith..

this is the end of week 1. guess this sem's gonna be a stressful sem. never-ending pile of readings. just the first week and i'm getting a little cock eyed. yuck. my little 'son' ryan just left yesterday. felt kinda bad tt i didn't go to airport to send him off. nevermind i guess, he shld be back for ns soon. anyway this son is freaking loaded to come back regularly. hahha.. ops, i didn't get his blog add. tt's it. i've only got a phone no (for local use. bleah)

anyway to those 3 girlies in canada: I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!!! boy, qinlei seems to be super freaked out with the co-ed bathing. hahha i guess i wld to. but boh pian, just gotta live with it. cannot powder bathe all the time leh. hahh easy to say but so darn hard to do it. rou, do you know tt your good friend foo is in so many of my classes? hhahhaa so close yet so far. hahha i'm just being dumb. anyway this sem's classmates are weird. maybe it's cuz everyone's in with cliques. so everyone's not all tt friendly. or maybe i'm the one not being friendly. oh whatever, i can't really be bothered now. i like staying in my comfort zone of friends.

this is gonna be a week with friends heading out of singapore in little hoards. first off: roujun, qinlei and lixuan. today: shiwei. thursday: ryan (my little adopted son haha..)

funny how everyone's leaving out of town over this short week. hey you guys, take care of urselves k! shiwei, so sorry man. suye didn't tell us if she was going so i dind't go. anyway, spare you of the teary moments. hee hee you little hum bao.

also had dinner with our family friend's whole family who came for holiday frm mauritius. it was fun playing with the kids even though most of the time i had no idea what the kids were telling me. it's all in francoise!!! how to understand? guess my love for french came when i met them since i was a kid, and when i went to visit em in mauritius like ages ago. boy it's got beaches that take your breath away. but ryan's so cute, me made me carry him (a tiny 4-yr old kid) from the restaurant in suntec to his hotel in conrad. hahha.. don't mind carrying him. he's so light for a boy anyway. and tina (who's a little bigger so i can't carry him) speaks all so fluently. can tell she speaks a lot even though it's all so french. but i love her too cuz we're both the same- the only girl admist all male cousins. hahha... the french greeting is so warm and friendly. you've gotta hav cheek touching cheek (altho male vs male greet with a handshake) and it's so awesome when the kids greet you. hahha esp when ryan and tina lavishes you with a bear's hug and super wet kisses coupled with a wide smile and giggles. wait till they day they learn chinese (cuz they're chi) and firm up their english, we'll just be friends who look at fishes (the thing they saw at the restaurant. sheesh)