failures are part of life, but somehow a person of reasonable mind ought to learn and safeguard himself from it. take precautions or be alert to their situation. don't ever drag someone else down to bear the shit with u. for goodness sake, just think of others as well. i don't believe in accepting rubbish for an answer. either you can do it or you can't, don't come a butter ppl up and give them a whole load of bullshit. it's crap.

it's so hard to always love your brother. you're supposed to turn your other cheek for your brother to slap when he slaps you on one side. the struggles of an everyday christian in this world where only the fittest survive. it's really a huge test of faith.

zhuo ren bu yao tai shi bai. you shld know how to guage for urself and just jolly well think. you not only lose ur self confidence, but your own dignity and ppl's respect for u. it's ur life, u control it. don't keep going downhill, there ought to be an uphill or at least a stop to it. no one shld ever let themselves fall into an endless pit. if you're in shit, it's probably your own choice. live with it yourself buddy.

watched singapore idol tonite. quite entertaining. thyidor was fab man! great presence and style. our next closest thing to singaporean alicia keys. she's the lady! anyway hahah i think i make a gd predictor. those i predicted all got in. haha..

david yeo's voice is nice. soothing. altho he's really quite beng. can't exactly compete in the looks department. but hey hey hey, de cruz and ben eio totally rocks. hahaha... how can anyone look so cute? apart frm edison and some other asian ppl. wow.. de cruz looks really cocky, but hey those whites and tt smile melts all tt ego away. ben eio, tt echoboy, is another cute one. monkey ears, but cute. hahhaa. two totally different type but hey, it strikes a chord with most girls. haha i'm being bimbotic again. well, it's a sign of nature at work. hahhahahaha....

why cant we juz find such ppl ard sch?? groan... like what ryan said, nothing to look fwd to each day. juz come, try to stay awake. yah, this has been how it's like since last yr. pathetic..

responding to dinko's comment, i think i can juz blog some irrelevant crap to chase those cobwebs away frm my blog. but honestly, my life's boring. i'm juz drowning in the never-ending pile of things to do, not just in school but in church too. i'm gonna be squashed flat by the end of the mth (which is ending soon) so stifled by everything. yucks...

so i'm in a mode of hoping i can go to some island again (singing: i'm leaving on a jet plane) to juz soak up the sun (singing cheryl crow's song) bleah, life is such a mad cat rush in little town singapore. maybe i shld go to some apline hut to hibernate. or to some cove to be a hermit. this is good for health. ok, i'm talking rubbish again. it's a form of release and escapism.

doubt i can destroy tt overwhelming bundle of stuff on my shoulders before the wk starts again and accumulate. ok, i just really need to complain. i'm surviving (i hope) so don't come tell me i need to be positive and all tt crap. this is my space to complain complain complain, exactly how we singaporeans are taught to do all the time. hate those feel-good psychology talk, it's all rubbish. end of the day, it's pathetic to have to rely on those silly techniques to feel good. it's ur life for goodness sake, not those authors. so juz let me live my own life and stop wasting time on those motivational bks. if u've really got motivation, u've got it. if not, juz chill and it'll come. it's ur life, do as u please, not as u're taught or instructed to do.

i'm getting really nowhere. if anyone's still reading this, reckon u're quite free to read this neurotic person blogging without thinking. hahha.. good for u!

i absolutely cannot stand this sem. so many things are super irritating. urgh.. this dumb thing abt getting texts is crazy. no idea why on earth publishing houses charge so much for a miserly bk? then there are other things we're doing tt requires some basic knowledge frm last sem. gosh, how would any normal human rem aft the exams??!! for one, there's no pt remembering what we did last sem. anyway things change all the time. what we learn as the sacred truth today, could jolly well be deemed as the useless and even wrong tmr.

ok, i'm in a state of disillusionment. cant take it, ppl ard me are ranting abt stuff that i have no recollections abt and it scares me. why do u even need to know em? are they so important? yucks. i feel like going on a long vacation and never come back. maybe i cld be tom hanks on tt lost island in the carribean islands (no asian islands other than those in thailand)

this is rubbish. i don't even know what i'm talking abt now. juz shoot off whatever's off my head now. this is gd therapy..

it's so true tt ppl with mixed blood are juz so beautiful creatures. guess guess guess last nite showed these 5 kids who hav mixed parentage. gosh, they are sooo cute! the girls were juz lovely but not so lively on stage, so not as entertaining. those little boys are juz too charming! (juz reminds me of how ah lian really loves boys) they are even more charming than most of the ppl i know. hahah... don't call me a paedophile. kids are gd to look at when they smile. tt's where my liking stops. screaming, wailing and rowdy kids are off limits. they juz make u wanna tear ur head off ur shoulders. happy kids are angels, those out of this category are monsters.

how did Jesus hav tt kinda patience to deal with kids? then again, He's patient and loving. much more than i am. maybe it's time to stretch my limits and be even more patient. this sunday will be a gd testing. haha..

"let all the children come to Me.. the kingdom of heaven is for the babes.. have childlike faith"