here i am again. after the horrendous stats paper, muchin on my biscuits n watching days of our lives. has been a dumb day for me. making dumb mistakes. who ever said a die has 7 sides? well i did. i said there's 7 dots on a side of the die. hahha so stupid of me. sucha dumbo. this is juz one of the many many mistakes i did. i better not rattle on, or it'll be never-ending story chpt 3.

can't wait to meet wensi on monday! maybe i shld ask ah lian out too. it's been so long since i've met em. too bad, shaqi's back in m'sia. okok, so till then it's break! hahhaha... heck abt mktg. someday i'll give u a low down on my ruggrats. the beloved ones. heh heh..

so this is the 2nd paper tt's gone. 2 more to go and i can't take it. so sick n tired of having exams. been sleeping on my bks day after day. so i'm juz hoping this ends so tt i don't hav2 sleep on my bks. juz sleep. hahhaha... not tt i haven't been doing it anyway. what the heck am i saying? having some literary jam up in my brain now.

tried my dad's wine the other day. coroner's shiraz. yuck, so bitter n smelly. and he even said it was sweet. hahhaha so i told him i still liked burgundy (the one u drink for holy communion) so sweet n nice. then he said, i dunno how to appreciate it. hahah hmm anyway hope tt he brings some nicer ones home. till then, shiraz is not on my list of favourites.

can't wait for the hols to come. it's so boring juz looking at my bks or watching tv. hmm.. actually i've got no idea what to expect during the papers. oh whatever.. it's so boring juz to talk abt exams all the time. it sucks..

watched some travelogue show on tv recently. some backpacking program which follows ppl who check into youth hostels around europe. boy it looked so cool! they went to spain one epi and next to salzburg. oh man, i really wanna go too! always thot i can take this kinda stuff. but i realised if i ever go, it has to be a mixed grp. guys n girls on the road. it's safer n more fun. juz time out having a hell of a time. something i didn't really fancy was the kinda parties they had with the hostelites. all dirty n yeah, u get what i mean. hav been thinking of gg abroad (probably aussie) with pkg. but i'm sure bth our parents won't allow it. hmm maybe i can start saving n ask ard. rope in some ppl to go along. xian, shiwei, suye, vain.. when it comes to europe, u bet i'm gonna ask elliot cuz he'll probably know his way ard. oh there's suye also! she wants to go london. hahah hmm maybe i can even visit yam at nottingham.

boy, all these is juz a dream. too far as of now. but i really hope i can get to do it someday. all before it's too late. juz tour with my friends and hit the road. we can't really travel in a car across states during holidays like u can if u were in aust/ us. the furthest u can go is probably m'sia. and i'm not really keen on tt. hmm... nvm, juz get my pop to agree first. this is my first and biggest biggest hurdle. pop, time to let ur girl go n explore things outside of the safety zone. i know where my limits are. chill..

there's something really wrong with me. i'm always online or doing other unimportant stuff. supposed to be studying or muggin for my papers, but here i am blogging again. what the heck am i doing with my life? argh.. juz no motivation or drive. this is the downslide fer me

anyway, juz had my last mktg presentation. muz say i was a total wreck. unprepared. blabbered thruout my part of the presentation. not confident of what i said. juz absolutely different frm how it was like b4. well highlight of the day was the photo-taking. haha silly ryan said, muz bring digicam cuz she dressed very girlishly today. hahaha.. so cute. yeah, so there we were snapping all the way. quite funny. there's some grp dynamics among the 5 of us. hahah quite funny cuz we're always doing stuff other grps don't do. like crapping, having breakfast, even laughin over lame jokes (thanks to ryan n yiwen) then the 2 guys find solace in each other admist this bunch of wacky girls. poor chaps. hahha but i think they enjoy each other. hohohoho...

so i'm loading the pics onto shutterfly now. hmm might juz add commentaries in it some other day. not tonite. juz too many pics to go. shld i wait for it to finish loading? or shld i get back to my books? hmm.... u can guess which is my choice then

wanted to get my little bit of satisfaction with a choc ice-cream cone. the one yiwen n myself like. but argh, the silly mac girl gave me the wafer cone?!!!! argh! she still asked me what cone i wanted and i told her i want the biscuit one. u muz be thinkin why on earth am i complaining as long as i get the choc ice cream rite? tell u what, i hate the wafer thing. it's so soft n uncrunchy. like food for old people with no teeth. yuck....

watching the new jap drama now. there goes my water boys. last episode last wk. drats, exams are round the corner and i'm already half in the coffin. at the rate i'm gg, i'm juz jumping head on into deep shit. kinda given up on this sem. don't know why i'm doing this to myself but yeah, there goes my white flag hanging above my head. dido's "white flag" is my theme song now.

anyway back to the jap show. hmm not bad looking guys but definitely not as gd as kimura n the beach boy chap (whatever his name is) maybe i shld catch oc, the new ch5 show. looks cool and shallow for a brain dead me on thurs nites..

maybe i shld work at a production house or tv station to watch more tv. hahhaha

hmm yesterday was a musical ride for me. was listening to radio and wah, all my favourite songs were aired! cool.. still haven't got the time to watch linkin park vcd. gosh..

Love Song For A Savior
In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"

getting a little lyrical these days..

it sucks when ur circle of singletoon friends are shrinking. and recently it has shrunk with two mbrs less. argh.. so obsessed with dating tt u can't meet em up. what's ur problemo? no life outside of tt small partnership of two? yiwen, yeah i think what u said is true abt the turkeys. hahha.. hmm, still think my rugby pals rock more.

get a life outside of your little fantasies with ur soul mates..