Tonight, I seek to make a step in re-establishing myself in God's Word. It's been far too long not to be fed spiritually, and it is somehow manifesting in my life. I haven't been so short tempered for a long time, perpetually tired and not able to find true rest even when I take deliberate steps to nap over weekends. It's only when I was showering and pondering over what I've become that I realized that I've come away from my fundamental identity in Christ. I've come to rely on my own strengths to be the daughter, wife, mother and employee that I hope to be; only to find myself not being satisfied and tired. Yes, having a child messes up our once well-oiled daily routine and makes us tired, but God's grace and fountain of strength can pull me through. And I've failed to seek this everlasting source.

Well, I originally intended to write my thoughts down cos it keeps the thoughts more deeply etched in my mind. But for whatever reason my notebooks are in a cupboard elsewhere. So here I am, jotting it down online. Heh.

Anyway the specific devotional that I read today hits home God's wake-up message for me. "I will delight myself in Your commandments which I love." Psalm 119:47.

"Then let me love my Bible more and take a fresh delight by day to read these wanders o'er and meditate by night." Watts

There will be many distractions or more exciting / fun things to do, but I pray and call upon God's perseverance to keep this going. :)

Crying over split milk. Literally

1Q13 is the favorite timeline of the year. Just kill me..

Seems like I may have been a little over enthusiastic about caffeine over the weekend. Poor tummy paying the price for it..

I wonder how much pain and heartbreak God undergoes when He sees this filthy world. The people He lovingly created, yet turn completely against Him and reveling in a complete mess. The world, once pure and lovely, is now like Sodom Gomorrah; a place of disgust and injustice.

Over the past few years, and especially over the past couple of days, I've seen quite a lot of disgusting people. People with no morals, doing as they please and as if they are right. There is no integrity in their thoughts, speech and deeds.

Our world is already in such a mess. I can't bear to think about how it will be like many years down the road.

I can only pray that my family members are firmly rooted in Christ, steadfast in their belief and identity as God's children, protected for moral, spiritual and physical dangers, and kept pure in God's sight. The world will be ever more complicated and so I pray that all will draw upon wisdom and discernment from Christ to handle situations they may face in life.

Kind of funny how I'm having the jitters at the thought of presenting to the Division Heads later this morning, even though I've been presenting to Dept Heads and Deputy MD several times. Guess it's been a while since I have a smaller portfolio so not sure what to expect.. Pray that all will go well later despite being faced with a panel of people who are known to fire tough questions.

Bleah. Just when I finally found a decent yellow CNY dress to match my boys, I wasn't fast enough in clickin through and completing the online purchase and payment. Dang. The downsides of purchasing from a good online retailer who happens to have a very strong following.

Hubs and I went for Pan Pac buffet dinner again. Heh.. Ate too much and I ended up spending a whole lot of time in the washroom last nite. Yikes.. Mental note to self: do not over eat, especially if it's the last meal of the day. Let your tummy have time to rest and digest before you zonk out.

Thank goodness I decided to freeze my ice pack in another fridge and not at the nursing room today. Some frantically busy nursing mom just dropped many other ppl's ice packs while trying to manage hers. Scary sounds of tumbling ice packs in the nursing room. I froze for a moment at the sound. Haha!

Just downloaded some 周杰伦 songs from Amped. Wah I forgot how much I used to like his songs until I listened to the new album. Nice! 乌克丽丽!

I friggin walked straight into my bedroom toilet door in the darkness about an hour ago. And I still can't stop laughing at myself..

Oh no. Looks like a train breakdown.. It's packed to the brim n hot cos air con seems over worked in the crammed situation :|

Dang.. I ate too much for dinner.. My tummy is making a protest..

Hai.. Everyday is like a friggin rush to beat the clock.. I'm moving at such a pace like a speed robot that I find myself walking ever more quickly, even during personal time..

Tough life. Pray hard.

Dark clouds and a thick fog seen from nursing room. Bleah..

This is not my day. I'm having a massive tummyache and there are some colleagues chatting abt work in the ladies. Now I don't really dare do my biz. Haha dunno to laugh at my 'plight' or what..

Shucks, I'm having a tummy ache and the train keeps stopping midway and not progressing with the journey. Acks...

Omg there's a baby in the nursing room in office. Amazing..

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Mental note to self - NEVER take the MRT during rush hour with a kid in tow.

Some crazy tourist squeezed in a jam packed train with his child's empty pram, then signaled to his wife who was carrying their daughter to squeeze in when the lights was flashing and the announcement was made that the train door was closing. Goodness me, the door really closed and almost squashed both mother and child. Crazy father endangering his loved ones' lives just so that they can take the same train together. The mother initially hesitated cos the train was crowded but the stupid man kept asking them to board. What's going on in the father's mind?!