met up with my pals n yeah caught up a bit. as usual, wensi made this comment "mag, u really shld've stayed at smu. it's the right environment for u" sometimes when she makes this comment, i really wonder abt my decision to withdraw frm the early admission. wld i be better off at smu? no one knows. probably it was God's divine plan for me to be in ntu. but i don't really know abt it now. juz living each day as it comes. no aim, nothing really exciting to look forward too.

turning 20 this yr. what's to be 5yrs down the road? 10 yrs? 20 yrs? it's a scary thought. gonna be sucked into the working world ekking out a living. juz like ah ye, she said no pt worrying abt attachments. u're gonna be working the rest of ur life. what's 2 or 3mths of internship? starting thinking abt ur life. what do u wanna achieve? earn big bucks? enjoy life as it comes? john once asked me this, what do u wanna be remembered for when u die? what do u want to hav carved on ur tombstone? what kinda tribute will ppl pay to you? are u sure u juz wanna be remembered as a person who achieved a lot in ur career? i'd rather not. don't care what ppl say, as long as i've lived a life with ppl i love ard me, it doesn't matter if i'm not a high achiever.