Strangely, it took a bus driver to realise I wasn't smiling and staring into space the whole journey back. Had got on the bus listening to music, so didn't notice that the bus driver was trying to talk to me until sth caught the corner of my eye. Well, I took off my earphones and chatted briefly with her; talking about things like how our city life has made us all tired. Everyone's going home late, spending less time at home and just repeating our cycles travelling to and from work.

Hmm although this wasn't exactly what I was mulling about on my journey home, this is one of the topics parked somewhere in my head which I think about when alone. Guess this is how I keep my brain active - thinking about things all the time.

Anyway what I was actually doing was re-playing what I had done (notice how I'm not using the word "accomplish) the past 24 hours. Wonder if I'm just a digit or figure of existence in the world or in people's lives. The world moves on without you, people can continue their lives without you. Not much difference whether or not you're around. Hmm I suppose this might be a little different for family, loved ones and close friends. But by and large, this is probably quite true. Which is why our real worth is not as a person on this earth but as a child of God.

Random thought: it brings me much joy to see children smile and laugh cos these are from the bottom of their heart. Just smile when you feel like smiling, frown when you feel like it. Not like how adults are; having to contain sometimes your frustration, smiling when you really feel like just giving a blank look. Nah, am just in a melancholic mode recently.

Might just take a day off to space out on my own. Go ECP, Botanic Gardens or just stroll along some park (if I know how to get there). That said, I'm sure I'll never get down to doing it becos I keep procrastinating my leave-taking. Gee, I really shld subscribe to my colleague's belief in taking quarterly breaks to refresh myself. Meanwhile, I'll space out in my dreams..