Fingers crossed everyone. It's the time where ppl start bidding for classes on the ever-so-undependable STARS. I hope I get my GE class and that Stella will give me the credits for helping her out. Haha if all goes well, I'd have cleared all my electives by June! Guess I'm not really going for modules I really like anymore, since they're only avail during term time and I can't possibly cope. So whatever that comes, it's good enuff! Let's hope the classes are nice and interesting..

Show others brotherly kindness. One of the 7 virtues we ought to show as disciples of Christ in 2Peter1. What struck me was this: we are the only Jesus the world may ever see. How big a responsibility we shoulder. The example of Mother Theresa was never as apt. The epitome of how we can show such kindness and love to others.

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People step into different chapters of life at each stage. Priorities change, perceptions change, time changes. Everyone steps into another mode of life and go for things that are different. Today you might still have your chummies sitting beside you in your usual hang out corner, the next day, the circle of laze-around pals will dwindle. There's time that's gotta be spent with their other half and so on. Yah da yah da.. I may sound so cynical (probably some might be saying this at the back of their heads "Gosh, it's so easy for her to say such things cuz she hasn't got into any serious relationships. What on earth makes her think that she won't do such things if she ever gets into the same situation?) Yeah, I'm not qualified in that sense to say such things but there's gotta be some line drawn between sharing time together. Nothing wrong abt that, but we still need to spend some time with our long time pals. Can't just chuck them aside rite. Either that or introduce your circle of friends to each other. It's nice and warm.

Sheesh, I better not get myself into a complaning mode lest I'm labelled as a whiny and sore person. Tata!

Has anyone heard of the new drama Chase? Haha you bet I'm gonna catch it as much as I can cuz there's Utt. Altho he looks so scruffy in the show, I think it's still worth a watch.

Something's really interesting abt the character names. Ellie and Gabriel. Hahahha, exactly the names of Gabe n Elliot! Oh gosh Gabe, you're supposed to be chasing after Ellie and wait for 'him' for 10 long yrs! Hahahhaha, this is gonna be so cute eh. Sorry Gabe, I can't help finding this really funny. Wow, Ellie has long hair..

::Catch Chase on Thursdays on Ch5 @ 8.30pm::

It is really tiring to run along for some cause that was supposed to be a common thing all alone. Well almost. Each time when something needs to be settled, it almost practically falls on my hands. Not that it totally isn't my responsibility, but it would be nice if we all shared the burden sometimes. It both worries and scares me how people can give you an immediate answer to a request. It almost sounds like I walked right into a shut door. I will really appreciate if sometimes others just show some support or at least some appreciation of what you have done. I'm covering so much for others until I feel as tho I'm taken for a free ride. Esp on my PMSsy days and I don't feel gd abt much things.

I can't possibly cover each and everything everytime for you guys. By right, I should be just going there to give you support. You guys are still the real ones who should be providing the voice for the mass. I definitely won't hesitate in helping you guys. You know better than anyone how I've been helping out. I'm not sure if I'm not firm enough in my stance, and I might not be assertive enough. But yah, I can't possibly keep giving people my time. It's taking a toll on my personal time too.

Too much of grousinga and complaining makes me feel tired. Tomorrow's a better new day.

Thanks Lydia for your lovely vcds! Edison Chen will definitely make my day. Not some dunno what kiddo you told me from dunno what Taiwanese band. Edison still wins hands down. Tsk..

i'm really supposed to be studing right now. such an ill-disciplined creature. ought to be shot dead. haha.. my running session failed yest. i was too lazy to move when i got home. so wen, even when i finished i still didn't run. boo hoo hoo.. i'm just a bag of lazy bones.

shucks, the hols seem to be ending and i've yet done anything contructive. just idling during the day, watching tv and finally turning in early for the night. grr, i haven't done anyth. i hate the thought of sch starting again.

my ns friend told me it's good to study. there's a sense of purpose. maybe lah, but it's absolutely hectic! guess girls haven't got tt 2yr break from studyin like the guys. we're on different frequencies when it comes to being excited abt studying. haha gabe, you might be one of those enthu ppl waiting to charge into smu eh?

for now, I HATE SCHOOL!!!

really enjoyed hanging out with the ruggrats as usual. it was great. not tt we had much excitement, but the chat was just nice. it's always so nice to catch up with the gang, altho we seem to keep having prata each time. tt's not too good, cuz it's fattening. haha

wensi amazes me by how well she understands me sometimes. what she says just wack right into my face. or maybe it's just tt i'm an easy person to read. anyway, she suggested tt i play with lion reds for the fun of it. i don't know whether i really should. i'm kind of used to my life now tt's not dictated by my trg sessions and stuff. but part of me longs to play rugby. guess i suck at it now. there's another part tt tells me not to play cuz there's my stupid little pride at stake. cuz the rugby circle's so small, the fact tt you're lousy shows. i don't know, maybe someone or sth will come inspire me to play again. one thing i'm quite sure of is tt i won't be playing for NTU, provided some miracle or spark of enlightenment strikes me. then again, the new blood is so fast i won't be able to catch up. haha slow poke bike..

playing rugby in nj was the highlight of my sports life. it was both fun and i indulged in the love n closeness we had as a team. it was really a team. a far cry from what you see in NTU. when i played last yr, i just didn't feel tt i really belonged to the team and it totally killed me love for the game (at least when i played with them) if you ask me what exactly i don't like abt NTU rugby, i can't really pin down the exact reason. no team bonding, pride, my lousiness, the lack of an inspiring coach? one thing for sure is tt i'll love my ruggrats forever. everyone, shaqi, raisin, musketeers, chock, mighty mouse, lobster, the speedsters: auntie jac & yam yam.. this is disgusting to say but i even respect our foul-mouthed and bad reputation coach rong (beefcake as lobster and i call him)

mighty mouse had to remind me abt my game last time yesterday during dinner. no idea why they said i cld be the game maker at my side of the field. i don't even see myself doing lots. guess i worked well with yam as the left wing. i'll always respect coach for what he told me. nothing really big but it was the start of how i picked up the game and eventually made it into the team. used to just be tt teamB player. yeah, beefcake's a good coach even tho there are moments we really hate him and his 'golden' finger. slap me or what if you're one of the anti-rong jingxings, but i respect him as a coach. he really teaches a different type of ball game. hmm, maybe if i go to lion reds and train under ann & karen (the wedded lesbian couple. eks) i might change my mind and include ann in my respected coach list. we'll see.

yesterday's worship was good. teck wee's good at leading the congregation as usual. yeah, it's time we had this kinda worship both in main congre and yz. hmm, wonder when we're going NCC with amy and pkg. shld be soon i guess.

went to watch white noise with vane, suyu and chor ing. some kinda mini farewell for chor ing who's going back to melbourne this wed. lucky girl who's perpetually travelling. anyway the show was dumb. it wasn't scary just those sudden noises and screams. hahha vanessa tugged my sleeve and we both screamed. gosh, we were the only 2 idiots who screamed in the whole cinema. hahha.. then chor ing's scaring herself while suyu's laughing her way off thruout the show. dn advise ppl to watch. quite boring and no big climax in the storyline. bleah.

had a nice chat with chor ing abt YAM while we were out yest. hmm, i'm looking forward to having YAM. wonder how it's like. but at least it's going to be a gd grp tt caters to our age ppl. hahha.. let's pray hard abt YAM. it's time we had a grp like this. maybe not as well estab like PUNJ, but it's gd enuff to have a gathering with ppl your age. i feel kinda old with the sec kids. altho sometimes i blend in with my height. ops!

when anyone mentions the word chef, you think of that italiano who has a long and carefully-twisted moustache with a big belly and long white paper cap. with the finger lickin sign saying
"mmmm! fantastic!"

wait a min. there's been this attack of the dishy chefs aka naked chef jamie oliver and the italian guy on ch5. boy, they look more like lads in a boy band or some italian soccer team, not even chefs. probably the customer who's sitting at tt little table with a pretty lady over some romantic dinner for two. who ever thought that chefs would be so cool?

suddenly it seems that chefs are more like the dish instead of that french dessert. haha desperate housewives suddenly taking cooking classes. gosh, it's the invasion of the lookers instead of the cooks-to-be. the cook shows we see are more like lifestyle pages, chances for you to oogle at the trendy and suave chefs. no more aunty aka fang tai type of cook lessons on tv. gone are those ugly cook shows with the recepies and ingredients list plaguing the tv. sad story for those who really wanna learn how to cook.

whatever the case, i don't mind watching these shows. i absolutely can't cook, but my pride tells me yeah i can 'learn' along the way while watching these shows. hmmm tastes so good. haha.. jamie oliver's taken (he's gotta cook for his little girl now. bah) so i don't mind taking an italian dish

happy lunar new year!!! dong dong dong qiang... gong hei fat choi! hahha my overused cantonese phrase when i see old cantonese ppl. tt's all i can really say.

i'm glad to announce tt i'm well! yipee.. hahha so i ate quite a bit at everyone's house yest. but had to control until the last few places. sheesh.. yeah, ah xian's also done with her chicky pox to be able to go out!

my neighbour's so funny. we had reunion dinner together. so the older guys drank. and he was so silly to join everyone else to drink. then had rashes. haha duh.. my little cousin was so cute too. all dressed in her china girl dress, then playing with guns with the boys. hahha, so weird. but i guess the girls in my hse are all like this. too many male cousins, you just play along with em.

i'm just gonna enjoy the holidays. can't really bring myself to spoil the festive mood with so much sch work. eeks...

so anyway, happy new year to everyone! xing xiang shi chen, feng sheng shui qi. wow, i'm impressed by my knowledge of cheng yus. thanks to my cousins lynn n joey, never fail to come up with new cheng yus when greeting everyone. ok here goes my last one: zhu dai ga, LONG MA JING SHEN!

the weekend has just been a time to soak up the cny atmosphere. i totally didn't do anyth over the wkend. i watched all tt tv cld offer on fri, and sat was just a whole day out. sunday was slacking and i only panicked at nite.

gosh, chinatown is jam packed! i only went frm 2-6 and it was already so packed. oh man, i've never been to chinatown so close to cny. eeks! people squeezing with people. but for the atmosphere, it's much better than my miserable little town central. after chinatown, sent my granny and grand aunt home, and popped by toa payoh central. oh gosh, it was equally packed w ppl at the pasar malam. enuff people watching for the day.

the greedy me ate so much of the goodies at home, i've got a terrible sorethroat now. bummer. drinking some brown thing my grandpa gave me. it tastes weird. ah, i never can control those little prawn rolls. my retribution for finishing almost half of whatever prawn rolls we have at home. i live in regrets now..

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man, mac@orchard HASN'T CALLED ME! hrmph, i called and they said the shipment's delayed cuz they expect it to also come, but hasn't arrived. oh man gabe, ahhh! you saw it at the shops!! man, so i'm just eagerly waiting for that 'miracle' call to collect my i-shuffle! sound so much like a brat, a kid waiting in anticipation to blow out that birthday candle. my patience is growing thinner each day. and my bro keeps saying i got cheated. how can mac cheat me rite? it's their company! silly chris.

yipee! it's so much closer to the cny holidays! woohoo! hahha, it's so great knowing that for next wk i'm only studying in sch for 2.5hrs. hahha, i guess it's is the most slack week of my sch life.

somehow i hated cny last yr, but this is different. i'm kinda looking forward to it. sheesh, maybe i'm secretly hoping dad will let me drive a bit. oh but it's kinda scary, we might just step onto each others nerves over driving during the festive season. hmm, maybe i'll tag along with my cousin. hopefully he has his friend's car this new yr again. haha..

poor couz, he's gotta go thailand for army trg on 2nd day of new yr. bummer.. oh well, he's a regular, so he's paid for this anyway. can't imagine he actually signed on with the army. hahha he used to be tt kid who taught me each street fighter characters' super powers, played ninja tutles with me and cried for his transformer toy. hahah the red indian for all the mischief we got into, including getting ourselves lost in the old plaza sing. hahah... dumb things we did when we were young.

ok couz, all the best for your trg!

Listening to Jamie Callum is such a treat. Not a good lookin chap, but a real talent with the piano. Guess I never had that some amount of musical inclination all my life. I like music, but I guess I just can't 'create' music like some others can. Know a whole lot of crazily talented ppl who just have it at their fingertips. So cool aint it? Yah ppl like me who don't have the little gift can just sit back and admire those who form bands. Haha I don't even qualify being the backups. Probably just the audience. But it's still nice to listen to bands. Maybe it's time to listen to more indie stuff.

Rooney's great. The band featured in OC for ignorant ppl. Might have stepped on the toes of ignorant ppl, but who cares man. It's nice to listen to songs tt match your mood. Oh but no country music or dance tracks pls. Country may be classic but ain't my cuppa. Dance is just plain lousy. Nothing great, all electric beats or whatever you call it. Off to my musical wonderland. A place tt I can only participate as the audience.

i got the iPod shuffle!!!! yippee! haha went with the girls to mac@orchard yest. and i ended up pre-ordering it. sad to say, i think it wasn't as nice as i expected it to be. but hey it's an iPod, so whatever. so i thought i burned a hole in my pocket for buying it. not sth really a necessity but really a want. the surprising thing is dad shoved me the money to make the purchase when i came home! ahhahha, love ya bits dad! i feel kinda bad cuz i'm earning (altho it's pittance compared to what i spend) and i ought to like pay for it myself. guess i'll make it up when i get my miserable salary. a treat? hmm, everyone's sick at home. maybe not. will see how. but for now, i'm eagerly waiting for apple to gimme a ring to say tt the shipment's arrived! hoho, so exciting..

it's so nervewrecking to have to live with a slow computer bugged with all sorts of viruses. having to restart and disconnected from using the net totally kills me. urgh. gosh, it's as bad as listening to lousy auditions on idol tv. bleah. wished i had some elder brother who can do all the computer IT thing for me. being a complete idiot at this formating thing doesn't help all the time. boo..

now tt i'm hearing more ppl tell me maybe i-pod shuffle ain't tt good. i'm a bit skeptical now. but yeah, i'll arm myself with more knowledge when i get by mac shop to ask. probably over this or next weekend. i'm so superficial cuz i really like the look of i-pods. hmm... how how how..

mp3 players galore.. boy, there's this new i-shuffle from the i-pod series. so cute! it's so slim n nice. pearly white. and the price is super affordable! $178 for 512mb!!!!! ahhh... i'm in a great dilemma whether i shld buy it. it's much cheaper than creative i think. so far, creative stuff are ex. altho you're paying for quality pdts obviously. wonder if the i-shuffle takes wma files or purely mp3 files. whether it's compatible with windows computer. and if i need to buy additional programs to enable file transfer. oh gosh, i'm in this mood of splurging..

it's hard when u're not working and plan to do so much. going to thai mission trip this yr, europe backpack when i grad (which is next yr) or kathmandu if we can't get the funds for a gd trip to europe. yeah, so how? shld i just empty my already little salary frm research work to buy this i-shuffle? ahh... it's not a necessity, but it looks like such a good deal. unless someone tells me there is really a better deal outside. help..

this has been a weekend of learning about work n rest. first it was during bible study. then again it was touched upon in sermon. as usual, God speaks to me in very scary ways. He sorta 'scolds' me through my bible study lah, daily devotion lah, sermons.. yeah. every possible way. (can't imagine what happens if He speaks to me in a voice. think i'll faint)

so it's a session on how to really manage my time. to take time off and recollect myself; to spend time away from all other worries; to put those worries unto His feet: to rest in Him. it's really what i need now. it's been a rather packed week, yet again. and i'm starting to feel kinda drained having to juggle with so much. i've been thinking about my own personal time nowadays. given the character i am, i value it a lot. at least to have time to spend with my friends. so i guess this is it. i'm taking a break from some stuff and hanging out with pkg on friday. maybe just to new creation for a change of environment. it's time to visit other churches.

as for now, i'm going to just try and take things easy. not to rush myself through things. smell the roses and admire the scenery tt comes by. going to dream more and shut an eye on things.

i really shldn't be blogging right now. but since my dad's in the shower, it's a great excuse to go online (and get stuck there subsequently)

life's kinda getting to be a drag now. it's so darn routine. sad thing is, despite it being so routine, i'm still unable to catch up. it's sch work, research, church... i'm like elasti girl being stretched, not to the max yet but enuff to make me scream. yikes! almost no more social life. and i'm not even in rugby anymore. can't imagine if i'm playing (hahha if they don't kick me out first) guess i can be a 24hr running clock if it really happens.

sheesh, haven't met up with ruthie since she came back like ages ago. sorry babe, we'll meet up on thurs k? i'm really really sorry dear. supposed to like hang out with you soooo long ago. we'll make it up with the short catch up time on thurs yah. it's back to those times of walking ard aimlessly and cracking silly jokes abt ppl. hahaha... my evil twin. just kiddin. =)

ok, dad's outta the showers, so it's time to bathe! oh btw, listen to pug jelly. they're great!

we whine all day that life's unfair. why are some ppl given such an easy life yada yada, you get my idea. but flipping thru the papers, watching the news and hearing of stories of ppl stuck in those tsunami hit areas makes us look really pathetic. here we are enjoying the comforts and soaking in areas of life we take for granted. our security, peace, family, friends n loved ones. sometimes ppl ought to be smacked to shake em out of their little bubbles of 'me and my own world' those ppl are stuck and their lives are thrown into some big state of upheveal, worrying abt where their families are, how they're gonna turn out of that pit of life. if we're whining and complaining over why we don't have a holiday, that new i-pod mp3 player, the latest mobile and what not, i think we're in the wrong direction.

our very breath is the most basic thing we take for granted. ppl die in the most unfathomable manner. name it, i think someone in the world has died of tt manner. choking on fishballs, getting struck by a flying flower pot, being banged by a vehicle while walking on the pedasterian path...

why does God allow such a disaster to happen? a question that was popped to paster ch. guess there isn't a firm answer anyone can give, not even the highest priest or bible scholar. it's just God's plan and we'll never fully understand it. the only thing we're sure of is that God is soverign in all situations. a unshakable pillar of support and strength. our dependence. so easy to say, but all so hard to do it with fullest of all conviction. we're just control freaks, trying to get a hold on every aspect of our lives, to twitch it into the plan we've mapped out for ourselves. mind us, man plans but our God directs. so bless all mankind (including myself) who try to get a grip on our life's plans. guess we can only go forth in fullest faith.

oh she of little faith..

this is the end of week 1. guess this sem's gonna be a stressful sem. never-ending pile of readings. just the first week and i'm getting a little cock eyed. yuck. my little 'son' ryan just left yesterday. felt kinda bad tt i didn't go to airport to send him off. nevermind i guess, he shld be back for ns soon. anyway this son is freaking loaded to come back regularly. hahha.. ops, i didn't get his blog add. tt's it. i've only got a phone no (for local use. bleah)

anyway to those 3 girlies in canada: I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!!! boy, qinlei seems to be super freaked out with the co-ed bathing. hahha i guess i wld to. but boh pian, just gotta live with it. cannot powder bathe all the time leh. hahh easy to say but so darn hard to do it. rou, do you know tt your good friend foo is in so many of my classes? hhahhaa so close yet so far. hahha i'm just being dumb. anyway this sem's classmates are weird. maybe it's cuz everyone's in with cliques. so everyone's not all tt friendly. or maybe i'm the one not being friendly. oh whatever, i can't really be bothered now. i like staying in my comfort zone of friends.

this is gonna be a week with friends heading out of singapore in little hoards. first off: roujun, qinlei and lixuan. today: shiwei. thursday: ryan (my little adopted son haha..)

funny how everyone's leaving out of town over this short week. hey you guys, take care of urselves k! shiwei, so sorry man. suye didn't tell us if she was going so i dind't go. anyway, spare you of the teary moments. hee hee you little hum bao.

also had dinner with our family friend's whole family who came for holiday frm mauritius. it was fun playing with the kids even though most of the time i had no idea what the kids were telling me. it's all in francoise!!! how to understand? guess my love for french came when i met them since i was a kid, and when i went to visit em in mauritius like ages ago. boy it's got beaches that take your breath away. but ryan's so cute, me made me carry him (a tiny 4-yr old kid) from the restaurant in suntec to his hotel in conrad. hahha.. don't mind carrying him. he's so light for a boy anyway. and tina (who's a little bigger so i can't carry him) speaks all so fluently. can tell she speaks a lot even though it's all so french. but i love her too cuz we're both the same- the only girl admist all male cousins. hahha... the french greeting is so warm and friendly. you've gotta hav cheek touching cheek (altho male vs male greet with a handshake) and it's so awesome when the kids greet you. hahha esp when ryan and tina lavishes you with a bear's hug and super wet kisses coupled with a wide smile and giggles. wait till they day they learn chinese (cuz they're chi) and firm up their english, we'll just be friends who look at fishes (the thing they saw at the restaurant. sheesh)