gosh. how my bs grp has sorta crumbled. maybe tt's a hard word. but yeah, one of the girl's gonna follow her dad as he pastors in another church. thot she wld stay. the rest aren't coming for youth grp so regularly. i guess it's my fault as i haven't met em for quite a while. a long time in fact. yeah, this is God's hard way of making me buck up with them; to spend more time with them and shower em with all my love. yeah, wish we cld go back to when we first started n i played with the girls all the time. hmm.. maybe they aren't little anymore. they've grown n are finding the struggle between their social life and church stuff.

shiwei, we've gotta spend more time with the girls. i really dn wanna see em float around and never grow. hmm. thought my entry today wld be sth light.