Airing his hands cos they kind of stink. Might be due to keeping his hands in the mitten all day. Can let him be without mittens while feeding since I can readily stop him from scratching himself.

Yay, experiment #2 worked yesterday and Jon slept for almost 2 hours. I'm hoping he'll sleep longer this afternoon. Rainy weather so it's nice and cosy for him to be tucked under his blanket in the cot. Naptime clock started counting at 2pm.. :)

Experiment #1 failed - only had less than 5mins of sleep. Jon woke himself up again.

Experiment #2 - Mommy nurse Jon. It's usually a sure fire way but mommy cannot unlatch Jon..

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Tried a different pacifier to see if it helps him sleep. Experiment #1 - Tollyjoy stage 1 pacifier.

Keeping my fingers crossed..

Alamak, Jon seems to like to nurse to sleep. He doesn't sleep using other means. I'm trying to 'wean' him a bit so that he can sleep on his own so that MIL won't have problems looking after him when I return to work. So it's like cold turkey and don't let him nurse to sleep. Here I am feeling guilty in the room while MIL is walking around the house with Jon in her arms, trying to make him sleep. Dilemma as to whether to help her or just condition Jon to get used to me not being around all the time. What should I do.. Alamak, he keeps crying..

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Had a girls night out yesterday to celebrate Pkg's birthday. As always, nice catching up with the girls :)

But was so sad when I came home to find Jon crying so terribly and unable to sleep. He didn't sleep well in the daytime and things didn't seem to improve in the night. Everyone tried all means to soothe him and I kept feeding him thinking he is hungry. Poor boy still kept crying until he was tired and knocked out at 2am. :(

Heart pain to see him wail while we look on helplessly after exhausting all means to soothe him. Was also trying to keep the noise out so that Pork Chop could sleep. Then I also got upset at myself towards 1am or so cos he kept feeding, sleeping at my chest, spit up and cry for me to nurse him. And we would repeat this cycle many times. Very terrible night.

I hope Jon would feel better today. Am nursing him now and he's falling asleep on my chest again. Sigh.. In a dilemma when to bathe him when he's less cranky...

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Just when I said Jon is finally asleep, Bacon has to bark non-stop until Jon screams awake. Sigh. Why can't Bacon stop barking after I tell him to stop??

Thinking about Bacon and Jon.. I'm having serious second thoughts about bringing Bacon over to our new place because it is likely a time when Jon is learning how to crawl and walk. Hence Jon will often be on the floor, or have his hands touch the floor. It'll be problematic because Bacon's fur and saliva will be all over the floor as well.

It wouldn't be as big a headache if Bacon can be locked up for long periods in his own space like Mudpie, because we can then "segregate" Bacon and Jon so that Jon can crawl/walk around and practice his motor skills at home. I'm not very keen to 'lock' Jon up in his own room so that he can crawl/walk because he needs to be accustomed to and learn his boundaries in the house (e.g. cannot touch certain things, run into kitchen without watching out for any hot soup).

Sigh.. Not sure if it's also feasible to leave Bacon at the current place while we move to the new house.

All these thoughts about Bacon is not because I don't like him, but it's a real concern. Besides, there has been cases of babies having pet fur in their mouths at that age because they tend to either put things into their mouths or put their own hands into their mouths; inevitably swallowing some pet fur which subsequently cause health problems.

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Wow, I finally managed to log into blogger using the website and not post via iPhone. Haha had some free time to change the blogskin cos l'ill Jon's asleep.

Funny how I can't seem to coax Jon to sleep but my MIL can. The only way I can coax him to sleep is to let him suckle his way to lalaland. Hmm, probably it is how Jon associates me with suckling to sleep or feeding.

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I'm sitting at a corner of my bed peeking at Jonathan toss around in his bed. Don't wanna go near as he will cry for attention once he sees me. I'm perfectly fine with him just making small noises in his cot. Only pick him up later when he gets more angry and change his diapers at the same time. :)

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Our little darling is so cute when he sleeps. Fat cheeks too!

Million dollar question: why is it difficult for babies to sleep on their own?

I've been coaxing Jon for the past 3hours with all methods I know. Let him suckle, rock and sing to him, give him a pacifier, drain his energy by letting him "talk" to me. Nothing works. He would sleep on my chest after suckling and wake up from his nightmare almost immediately after putting him in the cot. I've also tahan and let him suckle for past 2 plus hours until I'm hurting now. Acks. Give up and let MIL carry him after I went to kitchen trying to wash the pacifier while holding a crying baby. Hopefully Jon doesn't 'smell' me since it's MIL carrying him and he would sleep soon. Jon's tired but can't seem to fall into deep sleep. I hope things would improve soon cos it's already past midnight; way past normal bedtime for babies. God help us :)

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Record amount of milk I've pumped in less than 10mins: a total of 70ml! Woohoo! Thank God for answered prayers!! :) :) :)

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Feel so shitty as a mother. Baby keep crying and we can't seem to soothe him. And I feel like it's always my fault that baby is crying hysterically. How much milk is enough? I don't know. Why baby refuses to drink and thereafter cry for milk like I deprived him of a feed? I also don't know. I just sustain myself by praying everyday that hopefully today will be better and that I can have things under control and not have baby cry and frighten everyone, especially the old folks. I wonder if I will regret to say this but I do at times wish that baby is at a age that can talk and express his needs. Then I know how to soothe and help him develop. Anyhow I just feel damn shitty about myself and I think blogging is the seemingly only way of letting it out. I don't dare cry to let it out so that everyone around me need not worry or get irritated with me. Back to my office life slogan when it gets tough - suck it up..

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Compare my tiny little feet against mommy's palm!

Ahh I can't stop playing with Jonathan's feet! They are so small n cute!! :D

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I'm so biased but our son is so cute, especially when he's sound asleep!! :D

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Dear Lord, pls help Jonathan to sleep soundly everyday and not to be awoken in shock or cry in the middle of his sleep. Grant him good rest so that he can grow healthily and be a happy baby. This we pray daily in Jesus' name, Amen.

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So frustrating! Why does he keep crying for comfort? I've tried all e 'soft methods' so using the 'hard method' now and ignore his crying lest he uses that to demand his way in future. So I closed the door not to disturb my in-laws but well they heard the cries. They came to the room and I didn't open the door else it spoils the intention of training Jonathan that he cannot demand things with his cries. I think my in-laws thought I was I'll-treating the grandson. Opened the door after 10mins to sterilize the pacifier and explain that we cannot always respond to each cry or carry him immediately becos this is not sustainable in the long run, especially if I'm back at work and the 'human pacifier' is not around. Well, the 'hard method' finally worked and Jonathan is wide awake but lying on his bed quietly. I'm just waiting for him to slp..

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So proud of my Pork Chop for being a wonderful coach to me when I'm having the blues, and also for being an amazing Dad to our little one. From swaddling, cradling, bathing to feeding little Jon, Pork Chop can do it all :) so thankful that my hubby is way better than most others.

The past week has been full of surprises. From adjusting to new responsibilities as a parent, to breastfeeding woes, sleepless nights, to the joys of witnessing how amazing God's creation is (I.e. our son Jonathan).

Even though he can drive us nuts with his endless cries and screams, these can be forgotten as easily as when his mouth twitches into a smile or when he shows us his 'milk-drugged look' after a feed.

I guess it is a matter of getting into the groove and continuous learning of Jon's needs/wants, cries for help vs cries for attention before we will find even more satisfaction and meaning to our sleep depravation. I shall remember what Michelle said - when the baby eventually smiles back at you, everything is worth it.

God grant us much love, patience and faith in our parenthood! :)

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Jonathan, are u coming out soon? I've been going to e loo twice - with a 2.5hr gap in between. Is this a certain pattern that is a sign of your arrival? Jialat.. I can't tell becos my tummy doesn't really hurt THAT bad.. Can't be my fish soup lunch that is making me visit the toilet ever so often rite... :|

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While we have quite serious problems with our nation'a public transport system, it doesn't mean people should take out their anger at innocent bus drivers.

Two days in a row that I've seen bus drivers being scolded (or some might say verbally abused). Yesterday, a driver turned off the air con for a while becos a passenger said the temperature was too cold and the bus driver could only turn it off as he couldn't adjust the temp. Thereafter another passenger came and scolded the driver for suffocating him by not turning the air con on. Poor driver tried to explain but the passenger just didn't listen and got upset. Today, another poor driver had to get people to move in a crowded bus else the automatic sensors at the door would detect a human and not let him close the door. Ignorant passengers didn't listen to him and just stood where the sensor was, and the doors couldn't close for a while.

Sometimes I really think we, as passengers, ought to be reasonable and fair. Certain things are beyond the poor person's control, so don't vent your frustrations on him/her just because he/she is wearing a uniform bearing the company logo which you dislike.

I think people are really not considerate and ungracious these days. If not for the fact that I'm heavily pregnant and likely to fall in the bus, I would have given up my seat to either of the two old persons that have been standing near me. Others around me are just blind - Singapore's one of the nations with high myopia, but I think we should classify them as blind (or socially blind). How can you not see these two elderly folks standing for so long?! Even if you are glued to your smart phones or gadgets, surely you can see them from the corner of your eyes!!

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Little Jonathan, Mommy concludes that you like to move and find yourself some space whenever I sit down. Haha! Mommy's tummy not giving you enough space huh? ;)

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Hmm the strange numb feeling on my left thigh is back. Felt it for the first time yesterday at home and it came back today during lunch.. :S hope it's nothing wrong

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Jonathan, haha are your exercising in mommy's tummy today? You have been moving and kicking for the past 3hours.. Time to take break and rest yah. Mommy also needs to rest and not keep seeing her belly twitch so abruptly. :) but that said, it's nice to know you are having fun inside my belly too!

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Of all days that the office toilet runs out of toilet paper and/or is clogged up when I'm having bad tummy ache. Arghh!

Dear Jonathan, mommy thinks you are growing well and squeezing my bowels more actively. Haha I don't really know whether to be happy that you are taking up a lot of space in my tummy and making me visit the toilet ever so often. :P

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Thank God for His many blessings each day!! :D Dear and I got our HDB ballot number last nite and this morning two kind Samaritans helped me navigate thru a packed train to a seat that one of them gave up for me. Hee hee.. Feel so blessed and well looked after by God. PTL!!

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Junior! You are weighing 1.2kg today and doc says you are growing well. Yay!! :) Dad and I have also decided on naming you Jonathan as you are a gift from God. May you grow to be strong in faith, a person of wisdom and righteousness, a man of strength, mercy and love. Can't wait to hold you in our arms!! :) :)

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Haha I'm on MC today and turning on YouTube to play Sunday school songs hoping Junior can hear them. Haha! I'm even sourcing websites where I can download the songs and burn into a CD for him to play at home or in e car next time. Lol.. I'm thinking too far ahead.. But I'm still secretly hoping he can hear the songs that I've been humming to myself :P

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Junior! Yay we saw you again last Friday! Haha you cheeky little fella, kept staying in your comfortable position and hide your face from Daddy and Mommy..

Anyway, everyone is very excited about your arrival! Both your grandmas have taken out all the baby clothes, bought you things like books (even though it'll be a while more before you can read). Haha!

Next time when Daddy talks to you or puts his hand on Mommy's belly, give a good twitch or kick to let Daddy feel yah. :)

Continue growing healthily, normally and happily in Mommy's ever-growing belly yah. Remember to talk to God in your own way too.

Xoxoxoxo,
Daddy & Mommy

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Junior! I can feel u move and kick for the first time today! Haha no longer mistaking your kicks for my growling stomach :P let Daddy feel u kick some day too okie? Love u and continue growing healthily, normally and growing in fear of God yah :)

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Miss the length of my hair during the period of our Bali photoshoot. We looked so radiant and non-tired.. Hair, grow back!!

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Envious of people wearing nice fitting dresses... I also want but I look so mum-sy now.. Bleah.. Emo emo...

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God, thank You for watching over Junior, helping him/her develop properly in the womb. Pray that Your hand continue to be over Junior, help him/her grow strong, normally and properly. Grant Dear and I wisdom that comes from You to know how to care and bring up this gift You've bestowed. Pray that Junior will grow to be a person that loves You dearly and loves the people around him/her. :) Amen!

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Junior, u better absorb more food from me today. Ate lunch, have a farewell muffin and I'm going for dept tea in a short while. Haha, absorb more so that you grow and not I grow alone :P

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Junior, we saw you on the ultrascan yesterday! So amazing. Cld see u swimming, moving and stretching inside me. God's creation is amazing :) continue to grow healthily, properly and become a person after God's heart k! We will see u again in 3wks time. Hopefully u are bigger and show more 'stunts' when we see u!

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Junior, do you not like tea with milk? How come you react so quickly after I drank it and make me go toilet?? I've already totally abstained from kopi. =)

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Being pregnant doesn't mean I'm an invalid. I still can do simple chores that are not strenuous. Don't treat me too nicely cos it feel darn weird and at times frustrating. I cannot possibly just sit around and eat all day. I'm not a pig to be beefed up and then sent to a slaughter house. I still need to move an exercise. At this rate I'm going, doc will say I'm unfit and I need to do simple work more often. Feel so stifled. Trying to make myself transparent cos I have to stand around and watch others do the simple chores for me, as if I'm an invalid and can't do a single thing. Pls treat me normally..

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Oh man, so suay. Eat breakfast also meet my auditee. Haha think they panicked and thought I'm back at their office today.

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Shucks I'm like having a junk food and potato chip craving all the time. Even after I took some Indonesian tapioca chips from Florence this afternoon. Bad fats bad fats..

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Shouldnt have taken bus 106. It winds a longer route..

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To my dearest dearest hubby who makes my morning journey to work ever enjoyable, comfortable and easy: 谢谢, arigato, gum xia, merci, danke. *muacks!*

I hope u are reading this soon ;)

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We go way way back to Pri 5 days

Long time buddies since Sec 1 days

It's been a long time since I took the long journey back to Boon Lay station. Almost forgot how painful and arduous the journey can be. I'm so tired, hungry and just plain brain dead. And I continue looking forward to the day I develop superhuman powers to teleport myself.. *poof!*

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Ops I realized some typo error in my post on Milk Toof.. The characters are Lardee and Ickle! Lardeeee.... Wheeee...

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Toof bath time!

I love My Milk Toof a lot... Soo adorable! Larder and Ickle!

Yet again some inconsiderate people who can't seem to hold e lift door open for the slew of people trying to get on. Still don't help tap the access pass so that everyone else can press the lift button for their floor. Fed up. Spoil my morning. Already lugging the friggin heavy laptop around..

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So tired.. Work late everyday and still have tons to do.. How how how?

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Other than my hubby and the guys in my family (yay!), I think most Singaporean guys are ungentlemanly. They just rush towards the bus exit once they sense you are making your way out of your seat to alight. Else they don't hold the lift door open for colleagues who try to get into the lift, and rest of us girls must help to hold the lift door. What's wrong with these people.. *faints*

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Saw a car stopping in it's lane to let an ambulance change lanes but a very inconsiderate n impatient van driver started horning at e car. What's wrong with people! Can't they see that it's an ambulance for goodness sake? The ambulance's flashing lights and siren are turned on!!

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Some people are just so atas. Cannot eat normal food court type or hawker centre food.. Haha I'm on save money for my honeymoon plan so eat cheap!

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iTODAY: Woman dies after injection to her buttocks at American hotel

Seriously, why would anyone want butt augmentation?! 

From iTODAY:Woman dies after injection to her buttocks at American hotel

| Feb 10, 2011 6:00 AM

A 20-year-old woman who had a cosmetic injection in her buttocks died early on Tuesday, prompting a police investigation.

Detectives said the woman and three companions travelled from London and were staying at the Hampton Inn in south-west Philadelphia.

Two of them had their buttocks enlarged in November and, on Monday, one received another injection while the other had a hip augmentation.

Paramedics were called when the woman later complained of chest pains and trouble breathing. She was taken to the Mercy Fitzgerald Hospital where she died.

The police are seeking two people involved in the cosmetic procedures, which were believed to have been arranged over the Internet. AP

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iTODAY: Chewing gum, now with vitamins and herbs

This sounds strange..

From iTODAY:Chewing gum, now with vitamins and herbs

| Feb 10, 2011 6:00 AM

Beyond tasting good and freshening breath, chewing gum today increasingly promises dental benefits, such as whitening and strengthening teeth.

Some brands like Extra and Orbit even carry seals of approval from the American Dental Association for helping to reduce cavities.

Now two brands, Stride and Trident, both from Cadbury, are including ingredients with vitamins and ginseng in their products.

Each piece of Stride Spark provides 25 per cent of the recommended daily allowance of the vitamins B-6 and B-12.

Vitality, a Trident sub-brand, has flavours with Vitamin C, ginseng, mint and white tea. The New York Times

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I can't wait for our honeymoon in Espanol (hmm did I spell it right?)

Tapas, Gaudi, Spanish fest!!

Another 2 months before we fly off :) :) :)

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Feel like an Ah Lian, listening to Like A G6. Tsk tsk.. It has e ability to make me wake up in e mornings

Oh btw, so shiok that this is CNY eve and no one seems to be at work or school! Trains so empty and the air is filled with anticipation to leave work early so that one can head home for reunion dinner. Sweet..

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It's so strange seeing an Ang Moh speak perfect Singlish

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Sigh, I'm like extremely frustrated this morning and trying to bottle my frustration becos it's not nice for ppl to know. Why why why am I spending time on seemingly less critical matters? Argh. Why cant we be forthcoming with people? I hate second guessing people's thoughts. Argh. Just suck it up and push forward.

If I'm a less responsible person, I may be happier like other people..

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Yay it's Christmas again!! My favorite holiday of the year.. Wish that one day I can spend Christmas in US or Europe - have a taste of how Christmas is like in other countries.

Anyway that aside, I've been thinking about Christmas and what it means. I've been finding myself getting caught up in getting presents; whether for close ones or to 'return an obligation'. Am I missing the whole point when as Christians we are supposed to celebrate and focus on God's sacrifice of dwelling among us, sinners? How do we strike a balance between reflecting on the real meaning of Christmas and enjoying the joys of shopping and festive celebration?

My DG has two baptisms this Christmas and my office colleague also recently had hers. For each of them, I hope this is very special to em. Having gone through quite a bit to convince their parents about being a Christian, or just having the guts to proclaim their face despite the real challenges of facing the consequence of family rejection and disapproval, I admire them for their courage and fire. I only pray that this fire doesn't die out as they journey on this path with Jesus, to remember this fire they once had when facing difficult questions about their faith some day down the road.

Press on Joy, Ivy and Wansin!!

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Gosh I am over welcomed with sleepiness and tiredness..

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I've never been so tired for an extended period of time. Even audit during peak period (which was practically my entire 1yr there), wasn't so bad. The intensity during the day is just tremendous. It's killing all my appetite for proper meals and frying my brains into ashes. I know it's probably unprofessional to complain in a public domain like a blog, but I reckon only my dear reads and not my bosses so this is still a 'safe' space to 'unbottle' my frustrations.

Today was bad. Got scolded twice and just plain rushing n rushing. I've sighed heavily for countless times. My dearest colleague who is usually the most optimistic girl among the lot also almost cried when we were discussing work. She also almost cried in front of her own superior during staff appraisal. Sigh...

I tear but nowadays it just dries up in office. No more blood or tears to shed. Capacity running low..

Where is the light at the end of the tunnel... I feel like those Chilean miners stuck in a dark hole wondering when will we ever see the day.

Think it's better for everyone that I unbottle in the cyberspace so that ears are spared from all these sob stories.

I really hope that there is truth in 明天会更好..

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Pissed pissed pissed. Bugged by everyone in office for work which are all considered urgent at the same time, attending to calls consecutively, responding to tons of emails... Even got shoved around and stepped on while taking public transport. So tired and brain dead. ROAR! I hope this is the end of the worst day of my wk!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot take it anymore!!!

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Sigh, just lead a very difficult topic on righteousness at my DG and had someone sit in to observe. It was so tough trying to manage the grp, keeping it relevant and juggling with the extra pair of eyes from an observer. Tough tough. It felt like a wasted session becos ppl didn't seem engaged and the message was not put across. Argh.. Having YT around is much better to balance off the dynamics..

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What do you do when faced with a situation that you know someone and find that they are not doin their work properly? Keep mum and hope someone else notices ad thus be politically correct, or what? Hmm....

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Extraordinary ambidextrous drawing skills

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfV9UROo7Dk&feature=youtube_gdata_player

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Japanese Precision

Check out this video on YouTube:

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Very very shiok to be on leave and not looking at my laptop for 10hrs straight. :) happiness.. I wish paid leave never ends. Yeah!!

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Hmm I used to think tattoo were cool. Maybe small and intricately done ones are nice but not huge ones. Thank God I didn't go one when I was young and rebellious. Haha never not listen to old people's advice. They are usually grounded on some form of truth or experience. Haha luckily I chickened out and didn't get myself tattoo..

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Think positive thoughts. Can't wait to see my pork chop. Lol

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I feel like a walking dartboard all over again. Reporting to several small bosses and being arrowed to do more work becos I'm the most junior person on board. Why why why.. Doesn't make a difference even when I'm promoted a little cos I'm still most junior compared to the small bosses. Sigh.

God grant me strength. I've told my immediate boss that I'm bait swamped and shared with him the extent of my non-core work that I've been assigned. While he said he will step in to help reassign if I cannot cope anymore, he also cautioned that it's too early now for him to talk to other bosses and pull me out of those work. What the heck. If I start doing those other work, my two legs would be deep in and all the bosses will then say hard to let me go cos there should be continuity. Alamak..

Anyway I just have to see how it goes. I will still tell them I need to get married and go on honeymoon. Just too bad they always forget that I've told them about my personal commitments and given them ample notification.

Tired tired. Why is every job like that...

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My parents possess the most amazing ability to drive me absolutely nuts and just shell shocked at what they can do to make me pant with frustration.

At every stage of the wedding preparation (and I really mean EVERY) they come up with ridiculous ideas about how things should be done, utter things to other people without first checking if that is what they should say or whether we've made the necessary preparations, nag that I've not done any planning (c'mon we've done A WHOLE LOT of planning way before they heard it. I just didn't wanna bore them with the details or go through the hassle of convincing them that things should be done a certain way which is most efficient) etc etc etc.

I know they are excited that, well, firstborn getting married and all. But c'mon, I'm getting married and I HAVE A BRAIN to think and work everything out. Pete and I have done soooo many other ppl's wedding that we know off the top of our minds how to do all these things. Go and see if any other couple is as chill out and well prepared as us. I bet you never find any others.

It's really freakingly irritating that they will pop up with the most ridiculous matters that makes me look at them and go "WHAT ON EARTH WERE YOU THINKING".

Argh, I will deal with what I can and leave them to deal with those beyond me..

Spoil my otherwise happy nite when I just drove home and smiled stupidly when listening to our 2nd march-in song over the radio. Wanted to blog about happy stuff but this stupid thing just drove me nuts and changed the whole tone of this blog entry..

Can't imagine that we are going to be married before family and friends in 1month and 4days. So surreal and exciting.

Had a good break with pork chop yesterday cos it's his off day before YOG work notches up another gear. Nice day of just moving around JB together. =) haha like a mini holiday

I seriously can't wait for our honeymoon. Yay!!

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Distributing paper flyers is not environmental friendly. I wonder who reads them. I just take becos I think those uncles distributing them want to finish their job and return home soon.

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Decided to take the train from Boon Lay today instead of going back to Pioneer station so that I had a seat. Gosh the train was uber crowded! Ppl squeezed shoulder to shoulder. I even had trouble trying to grab my tissue paper from the bag when I sneezed.. *faints*

Maybe it was a blessing in disguise when I sneezed so much and continuously that everyone avoided me. Haha! So I had a "circle" of space when everyone tried to avoid sneezin woman. Hahahahaha! I discovered some new tactic to "buy" myself some personal breathing space on peak-hour train rides..

Signing off cos I'm heading into the underground train tunnels.. *ah choo!!!*

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I'm getting the pre wedding jitters. So much to do and I hope to start hiving out duties for our helpers. We cannot possibly see to every single detail anymore. I will just trust that all help will fall into place and we just focus on the day and saying our vows before God. So gun cheong until my heart pounds fast at the thought of all undone work. Our emcees and band don't even know what do to or play! Ahh!!

Some ppl can really talk and talk and talk. Was trying to get some much needed rest time on the train to work. But was unfortunate to be beside 2 ladies who continued endlessly about their school, registration for something and what not. Now I'm extremely tired and about to collapse into slumber anytime..

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I just can't resist myself from posting this up. Had so much fun trying to do a digital scrapbook for our wedding photo montage. Haha, my favourite one for tonite.

Gotta start scanning more of my pictures cos I didn't scan enough of my own. Haha, so I've been doing Dearie's one first.

Ahhhh why am I up awake and in office when the weather is so good! I feel so lethargic with these kinda rainy days. Makes me wanna head home and sleep. Yikes.. Sleepy sleepy. Have been dreaming every single night that I'm sooo tired when I wake up. Even sleeping earlier doesn't help. Sigh. I need beauty sleep. Totally hate waking up in the mornings..

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Quote of the day from FB - one of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you once thought was unquestionable (or should be unquestionable).

So pissed. Persistent cough doesn't go away and keeps coming back when I get agitated. Terrible night. Tires but can't sleep. Sitting up against my bed and my bronchial asthma seems to be coming back. Crap. Angry. Wish I'm staying alone so that I don't have to feel so bad for coughing and disturbing everyone at home. Try to cough softly and stop but cannot. Time of the month coming also and I can feel myself snapping at myself. Sounds stupid but true. Since I should not snap at anyone else, I'm snapping at myself internally. Grrr...

Prayer written by Bishop Dr Robert Solomon:

Lord, draw me to yourself as I behold Your cross. May my ears be sensitive to Your voice amid the noises of this world. Let me be grateful for what You have done for me. Give me courage to do Your will. Amen

Tires tired tired. Ages since I exercised so much and did the (almost) complete set of gym routine I used to do with Nicole.

20mins of running at 8.9, 100 sit ups, 45 arm lifts (whatever you call that thing you pull from above your head to shoulder level), 45 leg presses, 45 leg lifts and another 45 thigh push (or whatever is that thing you stretch thigh muscles). Still short of the bicep press, lifts, ab lifts and plank exercises. Can no longer finish all of these within 1hr..

Legs were so tired that i froze in the showers and took ages to walk back to office. Bleah..

Shall aim finish the complete set within 1hr in future. 2 more mtgs to do it. Possible??

Happiness.. Enjoying the pockets of time at work where I can breathe, think slowly and have a more balanced life. Had thought that my work would be very bad at this time since I have to write a report, coordinate some things for Internal Audit's checks on the dept as well as handle the project work. Was kind of crazy a while back when all 3 pieces of work came crashing at the same time. Thank God that things have spread out and I don't have to work OT all the time. Thank God for granting me His strength to moe through each day and energy to work.

Tires tired tired.. Keep dreaming about random things at night and spoiling my sleep. So tempted to take half day and chill out. Reached a point of siandom with then thought of having to work. Think it's not about the nature of my work but just not wanting to work..