camp was fabulous. the camp comm was great! boy it's really nice to be a camper. refreshing change. God was great. He held the clouds and provided the sun and nice weather. but my lousy skin didn't pick up any tan. sorry me. sorta got used to it (altho i hate to admit tt i can never get a sunburn)

my grp was interesting. had a nice time talking to charles and druce. finally signs of druce growing up. probably he has already grown up, just tt we never realized it till now. or at least for me. charles is a smart ass. very mature for his age. but what strikes me most is his understanding of profound truths even when he ain't from a christian family. amazing eh?

well bday fell during camp and as expected i got dunked. actually i didn't really expect it to come cuz it happened at night, and i thought i was gonna be spared of any tricks. haha.. but silly me didn't realize tt as long as the day hadn't ended, there was still a chance of being tua. kena dunked into the salty waters of sentosa and ate the super delicious cake in my wet clothes. anyway, thanks to everyone man! esp pkg and the girls. *muack* i'm still trying to fit into the sandals. but chances are tt i can't make any progress making my feet smaller, so i've gotta change the size soon. nonetheless, thanks peeps!

i'm a total wuss when it comes to night trails. my biggest fears combined: to be alone in the dark, and it's in the forrest. oh man! i was already freaked out before it all started. pride got the better of me and i thought i might as well give it a shot to overcome my fear. so i went unpaired down tt scary trail. eee... goosebumps... way before the trail, i already had some little taste of being in the dark. was in the toilet bathing with the girls just before midnight. we were happily bathing and chatting when THE LIGHTS WENT OFF! shiwei and i just screamed our lungs out. ahh, how to bathe in the dark?? what happened? hurriedly try to wash any soap off and got out of the toilet asap. never in my life have i bathed so quickly. hair still damp with some conditioner and dashed out. conclusion: don't bathe at the toilet near tanjong beach after midnight, lights are off automatically.

back to night trail. by the middle of the stretch, i was almost a wreck. this sounds so silly and lousy, but i almost cried. luckily i was so slow in walking that ivan caught up with me. with my new night walk mate, we stumbled our way down. in the midst, we bumped into each other and also the stupid rubbish bin that was right smack in our paths. don't ever ever walk the dragon trail at night. it really gives you the creeps. you can see those white fake bones sticking out of the ground. esp the skull and ribcage. gross. when we came to the skull, ivan and i stopped momentarily. staring at it and stuck to the ground. for that split second i almost ran forward at 100km/h. eks!

night trail really made me think abt how much i relied on God. suye offered to pray for me before i started. but i was so caught up with my fear that i wanted to get it over and done with quickly. didn't pray with her then. my first mistake. down the path, all my mind was thinking of was "shit, why did i let myself do this?", "how on earth am i gonna finish this?", "what the??!! how come the journey takes so long? longer than the 15mins we were told" you get the idea. should have prayed and covered my ears to listen to my humming of praise songs. my second mistake. i've got vivid imagination, so it was so easy to picture a thousand things in my mind. instead of keeping my mind focused on God's help to lead me out, i fed my mind with those stupid thoughts. my thrid mistake.

i was so awed at my brother's comment for the night trail. he's also afraid of the dark, but it's the most memorable thing for him throughout the camp. he keeps saying how happy he is to know that God gave all of us night vision to help us get out of such lightless situations. he totally enjoyed it even though he completed half of the thing all alone (after cx3 left him halfway) sometimes the greatest lessons and enlightenment come from people you least expect. but i'm really happy my brother enjoyed the camp and learnt from these experiences. hope he finds some more friends among the older guys to stay in YZ. praying for a good DGL for him.

the camp held many firsts for me. first time setting up a tent (could hav done it in crescent but i can't rem, so i'll just take this as my first) first time walking alone in the dark (my own mini lifetime achievement award). first time getting scratches and blisters just for playing beach volley and beach touch at palawan. now my feet are in a sorry state. blisters, scratch marks etc. never used to have such serious consequences from playing at the beach. goes to show how coarse the sand at palawan is. not sure how i got my bruises on my leg either. hmm.. funny.

end of the day, camp was fun. zargo, iera, quigma & chee chee wa wa = survivors with the Saviour.

singapore idol. interesting and exciting watch. never thought singapore would be so enthusiastic and swept over by the fever. guess singaporeans are stereotyped to be so logical and uninterested in such idol worship. still, it was a great watch.

TAUFIK'S THE MAN!! versatile like a chameleon. wacks any genre dissed in his face so well. so much better than sly. don't really fancy his style. rocker's cool but it's just that. he can't do ballads and stuff. guess yesterday's show wasn't abt the vocals anymore. no questions that each have strengths in their unique voices, it was how they moved the crowd with the performance. man, i will wanna hear taufik sing with oli. ok i'm a little whammed up with the craze like some teen (oo i'm turning 20! quite sad cuz i'm out of my 10s, but yeah another phase of life again)

kind of guilty for not attending prayer service even after david personally asked us to go. torn between watching idol and corporate prayer. guess i flipped and chose idol watching. honestly, i'd be yearning to watch idol even if i was at prayer service. God, pls don't shoot me down with lightning for saying this.

anyway, it's camp later! woohooo!! i'm so looking forward to be a camper after being in the organising committee for like 3 yrs straight. it's nice to be a camper at times. just chill and enjoy. so here it goes! gabe, ur games better be fun yah. can't wait to get a tan. pls pls pls let me be burnt. i dn mind. never had a sun burn in my life anyway.

oh so update on the europe trip. wah calling all peeps who wanna go to europe in say 2006/7? still quite tentative abt the date. wensi wants to do it with her exchange in smu, which is after i graduate. meaning i'm already working. so kind of tricky how i can take 1mth leave. it was a tossup between US and europe for xiao, but i'm so bent on europe. so ended up persuading her to take her europe exchange. so anyone wanna come along? shoestring budget trip. so chill abt the cash. i'm ultra broke too. saving up in bits, but it seems such a long way to go.

singapore idol. interesting and exciting watch. never thought singapore would be so enthusiastic and swept over by the fever. guess singaporeans are stereotyped to be so logical and uninterested in such idol worship. still, it was a great watch.

TAUFIK'S THE MAN!! versatile like a chameleon. wacks any genre dissed in his face so well. so much better than sly. don't really fancy his style. rocker's cool but it's just that. he can't do ballads and stuff. guess yesterday's show wasn't abt the vocals anymore. no questions that each have strengths in their unique voices, it was how they moved the crowd with the performance. man, i will wanna hear taufik sing with oli. ok i'm a little whammed up with the craze like some teen (oo i'm turning 20! quite sad cuz i'm out of my 10s, but yeah another phase of life again)

kind of guilty for not attending prayer service even after david personally asked us to go. torn between watching idol and corporate prayer. guess i flipped and chose idol watching. honestly, i'd be yearning to watch idol even if i was at prayer service. God, pls don't shoot me down with lightning for saying this.

anyway, it's camp later! woohooo!! i'm so looking forward to be a camper after being in the organising committee for like 3 yrs straight. it's nice to be a camper at times. just chill and enjoy. so here it goes! gabe, ur games better be fun yah. can't wait to get a tan. pls pls pls let me be burnt. i dn mind. never had a sun burn in my life anyway.

oh so update on the europe trip. wah calling all peeps who wanna go to europe in say 2006/7? still quite tentative abt the date. wensi wants to do it with her exchange in smu, which is after i graduate. meaning i'm already working. so kind of tricky how i can take 1mth leave. it was a tossup between US and europe for xiao, but i'm so bent on europe. so ended up persuading her to take her europe exchange. so anyone wanna come along? shoestring budget trip. so chill abt the cash. i'm ultra broke too. saving up in bits, but it seems such a long way to go.

i just had to blog this. I'VE GOT MY HAVIANAS!!!! and it's a cool gold. can anyone beat tt? never imagine tt i'd wear sth like this. it's was a bday present frm two dearies: ROU AND VIEN! *MUACK MUACK* yeah so there was this little funny episode when rou came along with the slippers saying "princess, here's your golden slippers" boy, guess it was meant as a joke and we just tried for fun. hahha, it turned out to be the nicest pair there. yay!!! but i must say it's a tad expensive. kind of frivolous spending. so thanks a lot girls! i know it ain't cheap. feel kinda bad too.

met the crescent girls yest, so today i'm gonna meet my nj bunch. wensi, i'm coming soon! i won't be late. will leave after i blog this. see you raisin!

a bit of publicity: my youth camp's gonna be in sentosa frm 2-5dec. hey if you think zoukout's too cheesy and overly publicized, come for the camp! it'll be a head-banging time. a clean fun type of head-banging of course. we're leaving church on thurs at 1pm. so drop me a msg if you wanna come k? i'm going!

being disconnected frm the world is bad. my comp has been in and out of the house and it's terribly irritating for me. have to specially come to school to use the net. pathetic state. had in mind things to blog abt but i'll just skip them again. grr..

neville tan was fabulous! solid message man! too bad, he had to speak to the sermon topic. i would really wanna hear abt his life. it'll beat reading the book. oh btw, you guys should buy it. even if you're not a believer, it's a great read.

it's really funny how the same topic of marriage came up like 3 times during a week. funny how it came up when hello, i'm still in the club. hahha.. but funny lah. it's sucha distant idea. first we talked abt it during bible study, then again with pastor CH and i forgot how the 3rd time came about. it was funny hearing frm among my friends what we hope to see in the ideal other half. only have a vague idea of what i'm looking for. but eh, shan't say more. it's weird hearing this from me anyway. but for the records, i hope i don't hav the gift of celibacy. sounds so cheapening, but it's the truth. chor ing is also so worried abt tt gift. hahah... high five girl!

scarry how genesis says that the female should submit wholeheartedly to the man. i'm stubborn, so submission is a great struggle for me. i asked xian (during our bs) how can a female submit to a guy when he's a whimp? or a wo1 nang4? the unanimous reply frm all of them was, oh then do you think tt chap will even be in your choice list? hmm yah, it's true. so poor guys, you better be good. i can guarantee tt all girls will want the other half to be more superior. and with girls getting more power, it's tough to be a guy. luckily i'm not one. back to submission. gosh, what a difficult concept to grasp. seriously, end of the day we'll all submit and be tt xiao1 nu2 ren2. oh man, so difficult. nevermind, not for me a the moment.

take it easy and enjoy life first. i'm off now... buzz!

this is such an exciting day for me. first i sprained my right ankle again. think it'll go totally loose by now. everytime also kena the same ankle. how i sprained it? i was merely playing a harmless game of lazy badminton with my bros. then i didn't realise that the floor was uneven. and silly me fell and twisted my ankle. never in my life had i experienced such searing pain in my ankle. the worst sprain ever. i just jumped on my left leg, wincing and whining in pain. for a moment, i just blacked out and sat down. unable to maintain my balance in my head, it was spinning. gosh i was a wreck at tt point. sat there and tried to calm my heart as i was recovering frm the darn pain. that was my pitiful ankle in the early afternoon.

went home after badminton hoping to rest before heading for the chinese guy to rub my ankle. better not let it go untreated after i sprained it the last time. after resting and thinking of going out to the medical hall near my place, my bro screamed that he saw black smoke coming from our window. thought he was talking rubbish again so i just went to see for fun. oh boy, i've never seen black smoke billowing frm my windows before! it was black!! panicked for a moment before regaining my composure and asking everyone to get outta the house. i thot the house below us was on fire! wow, the whole lobby outside my house was smoky and we walked down the stairs (remember tt i sprained my ankle and i live on the damnned 15th and highest floor of my block!) ok so nevermind, limp down and saw my neighbours. the stairway was like a collection centre for all neighbours.

frm 15 i managed to tahan my pain all the way to the 5th floor. it got smokier, darker and way hotter. the stairway railings were hot to the touch. and by the time i got to 5th floor, i was coughing like mad. choking on the smoke. and the police screamed at us to all go back up. dammit! the thought of going back up was both for my life and tearing my ankle. but whatever, just bite my teeth and walk up! guess i was so scared and cldn't really remember the pain.

the whole thing took like the whole afternoon. the 4th floor of my blocked was seared to bits. everything was black. we all stank of smoke and our homes were smoky. like what you smell when you stand near to a heavy smoker. gross.. end of the day, i didn't get to see the chinese physician. had to meet my friend at jurong pt. the lift was stripped of the electricity. so darn it, how can i ever walk down 15 floors and back up again? thank God man, the electricity was back on just before i left home. so i took the lift wearily down and i saw the 4th floor lobby that was all tar black. it's blacker than a blangah. wah..

guess what dad said was rite. to pray and thank God that He preserved our lives. that the fire didn't occur near our floor, or we'd have to escape to the rooftop. it's this kind of brushes with real accidents that make you realise that what you see on news of burns that scare you. ok i wasn't really scared cuz the fire engine came like real fast. but i can't imagine if i lived near those levels. lesson of the day: now your drills in case of any emergency and never dump unnecessary furniture along the corridor that can catch fire. think of the possible consequences to yourself and neighbours. life's fragile. thank goodness no one was hurt (maybe some were sent to hospital for checks for inhalation of smoke)

my comp's down and it's darn irritating. it's like i'm disconnected frm the world. cant access my email, cant chat. urgh. and i've gotta come to sch to use it. darn.. had so many things to blog. guess i'll give it a miss then. bleah.

everyday's passing so quickly. the hols seem to be zooming past me and it's horrid. it's nice not to hav anything to do (apart frm stella's stuff) but so far it's nice and relaxed. so i'm waiting for next week to watch incredibles and go for camp! maybe i shld snip my hair b4 the camp. it'll be so hot at sentosa all day man. hope it's sunny and not rainy. or cloudy. i've got not much affinity with the sun tho. rain rain go away....

went for baptism class yesterdy. argh i didn't know that transferees are also required to share their testimonies. strange how come jason got away with it. ah, and we're gonna be scheduled to share em infront of the entire congregation soon! shucks.. i'll probably cower behind my testimonial and read everything verbatim. groan... pastor cheng huat didn't give me chance when i asked him if i also need to share. he just smile and said "why not? you have to share" that's the judgement. bless me God, how to speak in front of those old uncles and aunties who have already watched me grow up man?

some new word i picked up during class. koinonia=sth to do with relating to people around you. fellowship i guess. but doesn't it really ring a bell with nokia? maybe that's where their tagline connecting people came from. interesting. so koinonia sounds like koi (a jap fish) nokia! ok this is quite lame but i thot it was funny. i better stop lest i blaspheme the word of God and kena struck dead when i go out. hahah, what i always tell shiwei when she starts talking cock.

shucks, i haven't preped for bible study later on. hope my girls aren't reading this entry, or they'll stab me. haha. cute bunch of girls. they're so eager to have bs after exams that i feel so guilty for not starting it earlier becuz of exams. sorry dearies. we'll hang out later on. ok i better go now and prep the study on parables. it's interesting so you guys shld do it too.

oh this is a major announcement: neivelle (however you spell his funny name. maybe i shld ask weiliang since it was his icq nick) tan aka the iron man is coming to my church on 28nov! hey i'm opening this invitation to everyone. so yeah, drop me a msg. this is super duper cool guy who was like singapore's most wanted criminal at the age of 15 i think. got thrown into jail a couple of times before he was converted in the prison cell. read his book. it's super short but a gd read. chock, coming?? anyway it's rare that we get to hear him speak, so just come along lah. i'll ask ryan and qinlei as well. so anyway for the rest, do think abt it and come k!

i really can't wait for the hols to really start. though i've kinda given myself an unofficial break since wed. it's so tempting to just chill and relax all the way since it's a public holiday weekend. and yeah i'm so weak in my flesh. i succumb to these temptations easily. so here i am, waiting eagerly for the hols, my mind's not even on com law. bad sign cuz my law is in shambles.

and there's the champion! oh gosh, i haven't really watched much of it. and it's ending! my goodness, why does it have to end b4 the exams??? ok nvm, actually i'm juz envious of their tanned skin. maybe it's time to go sentosa. anyone?? can we play beach volley? i'm not good at it, but it's an easy way to get tan and have fun. hahah apart from swimming.

it's been a great week slacking. maybe a tad too much cuz i'm so hooked on slacking tt i can't bear the idea of hitting the books again. and it's company law, which equates to lotsa reading of absolutely long sentences that never seem to end. when you reach some rare comma, you've long forgotten what's the last phrase you juz read. kudos to all practicing and budding lawyers-t0-be (like yam yam).

great message from bernard lee (navigators chap) in church yesterday. same topic on worship, but he really captured the true essences of worship. nice! so ministered by it. at the same time, it sounded like God was picking on my little dark parts and illuminating it for me to see and feel sorry about it.

the whole duty of man in Ecclesiastes 12:13-14
Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every work into judgement, including every secret thing. Whether it is good or whether it is evil.

this is so cool! my friend's getting pregnant! hahah both herself n her husband are estatic. and so are we! this will be the 2nd baby arrival. hahha maybe it'll be nice to hav a girl since amy ong already had axios. so a girl frm amy chan would be nice! heh heh..

oh but it also means we can't go to her place so often anymore. the mommy needs some rest. bleah. but hey it's cool to see ur friends hav their kids. hahah little monsters but angels when they are happy.

when i saw her sms, i read the text again n again, thinking tt i could hav misread it. how can it be so coincidental? among's axios was juz a month old like juz a blink of an eye ago, and here we hav the second couple (who got married in the same year as amy and aurelius) having theirs as well. hahaha how funny it can be. exciting.. finally, the mpv in the tan's house will be put to use. instead of ferrying all the oldies like nat and xian. hahah ops nat, time to stick to your own little red car.

so happy (their dog) will be kinda overlooked i guess. now tt the grandparents will be cooing over the baby to come. xian, think it's going to be ur job to look after happy. anyway she loves you. so you can carry on buying those meat sticks for her. hahha..

gosh, this is going to be a terrible wk. huge premonition about tt. yest's paper was horrid, i had nothing to write for those heavy weight questions. today's worse. i woke up with a sty (however you spell it) in my eye! oh my goodness... my eyes are really the weaklings. they either get infected with bacteria or somethings juz happen to em. gosh! so now, here i am wearing my nerdy specs. probably stuck with them for the next two papers. yuck! anyway, i'm praying it miraculously disappears overnite. not asking too much by saying it be well by this afternoon. but argh, get lost you irritating little thing in my eye! i can't blink normally. bleah.. i'm going to visit my beloved doc in sch later on. by now, my record card probably only shows visits regarding this silly pathetic girl's eyes. i'm their record holder for buying most eye drops. bless me..

this is so sad. our lives seem to be surrounded with just work all day (or at least mine, how pathetic) i just want to get away from all of these and hide somewhere. i pity those kids who've gotta study so damn hard juz to stay afloat. all those thru train systems and what have you, are just gonna kill everyone and drive em out of our tiny little red dot. thank goodness i'm spared from all the new things going on. juz me n my simple simple life.

saw corrine during the week. wonder how are things going on with her and gabe. they really ought to get engaged or sth. but i guess they need time to sort things out. surprisingly, he's the only one out of the 3 of us so scoring in the love dept. haha not that i'm yearning or looking for one. in fact, i do agree with elliot tt it takes a lot of time. and more often than not, you get onto each other nerves once the honeymoon wears off. hahah.. kind of pitable state. oh well, maybe someone experienced here could give me some prep lessons. oh crap, i'm really out of my mind now. this is totally not me. anyway, i was shocked to hear tt elliot's still waiting. for what i dunno. he's one person who really has patience to wait wait n wait. bless him.

guess i'll come write when i'm really in the right frame of mind. i'm a pile of mess right now. the week was dreadful and tiring. my worst nightmare (some sort at least) the hope of a better holiday is keeping me breating, not performing but just breathing. well i'm quite sure i'll get a treat after exams. i'll win the silly bet.

it was the battle of the giants the previous nite. the attack of the flying machines and the swapper. i was juz minding my own business at my desk trying to do my tutorials. at the verge of pulling all my hair and screaming in the middle of the night, when they came. it came, right past my vision. immediately the red alert was triggered.

get lost you irritating flying objects. i tried swapping it with my paper. but it remained there. in my territory. trusting my territorial instincts i had to get rid of the intruder. so there i was trying to slap it. the white flag was up. not the irritating object, but me. it was tiring trying to get the persistent unsought for IT to leave. so i just ignored it.

alas, there was a bigger one along the line. it was the supa big moth. nothing i've ever seen. my mouth gapped but i didn't dare to scream in the nite lest i wake up my poor old gramps trying to sleep. so like some mute, i only moved my mouth. it circled my precious table, how irritating! i reached for my artilery. hahha my trustee ruler. the plastic ones you get for a couple of cents at the bookshop. there laid my enemy. my sword came down and there it was. whacked and slapped. yesh! finally victory is mine. hahha.. after fighting the big one, i targeted the small one. there i was, with my ruler brimming with triumph. it was my nite. the night i won the great battle. watch out you puny detestable moths. beetles, ants alike. i'm on the watch..

wasted one whole morning, my only time available this friday juz to do some dumb stuff that is totally not of my concern. i hate it when governmental bodies are so slow in doing stuff. how can u let someone call n call for the whole morning and yet not pick up that DAMNED phone! where are our taxpayers' money going to? customer service is crap for stat boards. they ought to be fired! what the hell do you think you're doing? no single soul answers the stupid phone in the WHOLE building! for goodness sake, are you guys dead ppl in the international plaza? and guess what, i have to pay for your stupid inefficiencies. and you can't even give me a single piece of useful advice. bizfile sucks. you juz give me phone numbers that are of no use at all. you're dumb, cant even give me solid advice. you're crap. the whole website is the least user-friendly. why don't you juz provide the service at your buildings as well? how can you juz discard the whole function of providing service? then why are you there? there don't seem to be any need for your lousy 'service' if you can't do anything for the masses.

argh! i hate inefficiencies. they ought to be fired. no chance given. unacceptable rubbish!!

wasted one whole morning, my only time available this friday juz to do some dumb stuff that is totally not of my concern. i hate it when governmental bodies are so slow in doing stuff. how can u let someone call n call for the whole morning and yet not pick up that DAMNED phone! where are our taxpayers' money going to? customer service is crap for stat boards. they ought to be fired! what the hell do you think you're doing? no single soul answers the stupid phone in the WHOLE building! for goodness sake, are you guys dead ppl in the international plaza? and guess what, i have to pay for your stupid inefficiencies. and you can't even give me a single piece of useful advice. bizfile sucks. you juz give me phone numbers that are of no use at all. you're dumb, cant even give me solid advice. you're crap. the whole website is the least user-friendly. why don't you juz provide the service at your buildings as well? how can you juz discard the whole function of providing service? then why are you there? there don't seem to be any need for your lousy 'service' if you can't do anything for the masses.

argh! i hate inefficiencies. they ought to be fired. no chance given. unacceptable rubbish!!

wasted one whole morning, my only time available this friday juz to do some dumb stuff that is totally not of my concern. i hate it when governmental bodies are so slow in doing stuff. how can u let someone call n call for the whole morning and yet not pick up that DAMNED phone! where are our taxpayers' money going to? customer service is crap for stat boards. they ought to be fired! what the hell do you think you're doing? no single soul answers the stupid phone in the WHOLE building! for goodness sake, are you guys dead ppl in the international plaza? and guess what, i have to pay for your stupid inefficiencies. and you can't even give me a single piece of useful advice. bizfile sucks. you juz give me phone numbers that are of no use at all. you're dumb, cant even give me solid advice. you're crap. the whole website is the least user-friendly. why don't you juz provide the service at your buildings as well? how can you juz discard the whole function of providing service? then why are you there? there don't seem to be any need for your lousy 'service' if you can't do anything for the masses.

argh! i hate inefficiencies. they ought to be fired. no chance given. unacceptable rubbish!!

wasted one whole morning, my only time available this friday juz to do some dumb stuff that is totally not of my concern. i hate it when governmental bodies are so slow in doing stuff. how can u let someone call n call for the whole morning and yet not pick up that DAMNED phone! where are our taxpayers' money going to? customer service is crap for stat boards. they ought to be fired! what the hell do you think you're doing? no single soul answers the stupid phone in the WHOLE building! for goodness sake, are you guys dead ppl in the international plaza? and guess what, i have to pay for your stupid inefficiencies. and you can't even give me a single piece of useful advice. bizfile sucks. you juz give me phone numbers that are of no use at all. you're dumb, cant even give me solid advice. you're crap. the whole website is the least user-friendly. why don't you juz provide the service at your buildings as well? how can you juz discard the whole function of providing service? then why are you there? there don't seem to be any need for your lousy 'service' if you can't do anything for the masses.

argh! i hate inefficiencies. they ought to be fired. no chance given. unacceptable rubbish!!

wasted one whole morning, my only time available this friday juz to do some dumb stuff that is totally not of my concern. i hate it when governmental bodies are so slow in doing stuff. how can u let someone call n call for the whole morning and yet not pick up that DAMNED phone! where are our taxpayers' money going to? customer service is crap for stat boards. they ought to be fired! what the hell do you think you're doing? no single soul answers the stupid phone in the WHOLE building! for goodness sake, are you guys dead ppl in the international plaza? and guess what, i have to pay for your stupid inefficiencies. and you can't even give me a single piece of useful advice. bizfile sucks. you juz give me phone numbers that are of no use at all. you're dumb, cant even give me solid advice. you're crap. the whole website is the least user-friendly. why don't you juz provide the service at your buildings as well? how can you juz discard the whole function of providing service? then why are you there? there don't seem to be any need for your lousy 'service' if you can't do anything for the masses.

argh! i hate inefficiencies. they ought to be fired. no chance given. unacceptable rubbish!!

there are just some things you can't forget. things you loved all your life. things you hoped for for as long as you can remember. just when you think u're ready to forget it, it all comes back again. this time round it just digs you.

we're such hopeful individuals. waiting and yearning for things that we know are almost impossible. thinking about it, breathing about it, dreaming about it. this is the substance of our desires. keeping us alive and giving us some glimmer of hope, no matter how small they may be. the dreamy side will say it's alright to hope n dream. but the rational side will cast off the thought as some unattainable thing. something out of our league. just a figment of our imagination. in any case, it's good to have the capacity to imagine. since it can't be reality, might as well dream about it.

for some ppl, these dreams are mere fleeting pictures. they come and go. for some they are always there. just hidden behind some other thoughts. trying to cover it up, but it comes all back again. that wave and rush of thoughts. it's overwhelming. but end of the day, we're slapped by reality- it isn't possible. reality bites. it bites hard.