Ahh I can't stop playing with Jonathan's feet! They are so small n cute!! :D

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I'm so biased but our son is so cute, especially when he's sound asleep!! :D

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Dear Lord, pls help Jonathan to sleep soundly everyday and not to be awoken in shock or cry in the middle of his sleep. Grant him good rest so that he can grow healthily and be a happy baby. This we pray daily in Jesus' name, Amen.

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So frustrating! Why does he keep crying for comfort? I've tried all e 'soft methods' so using the 'hard method' now and ignore his crying lest he uses that to demand his way in future. So I closed the door not to disturb my in-laws but well they heard the cries. They came to the room and I didn't open the door else it spoils the intention of training Jonathan that he cannot demand things with his cries. I think my in-laws thought I was I'll-treating the grandson. Opened the door after 10mins to sterilize the pacifier and explain that we cannot always respond to each cry or carry him immediately becos this is not sustainable in the long run, especially if I'm back at work and the 'human pacifier' is not around. Well, the 'hard method' finally worked and Jonathan is wide awake but lying on his bed quietly. I'm just waiting for him to slp..

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So proud of my Pork Chop for being a wonderful coach to me when I'm having the blues, and also for being an amazing Dad to our little one. From swaddling, cradling, bathing to feeding little Jon, Pork Chop can do it all :) so thankful that my hubby is way better than most others.

The past week has been full of surprises. From adjusting to new responsibilities as a parent, to breastfeeding woes, sleepless nights, to the joys of witnessing how amazing God's creation is (I.e. our son Jonathan).

Even though he can drive us nuts with his endless cries and screams, these can be forgotten as easily as when his mouth twitches into a smile or when he shows us his 'milk-drugged look' after a feed.

I guess it is a matter of getting into the groove and continuous learning of Jon's needs/wants, cries for help vs cries for attention before we will find even more satisfaction and meaning to our sleep depravation. I shall remember what Michelle said - when the baby eventually smiles back at you, everything is worth it.

God grant us much love, patience and faith in our parenthood! :)

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Jonathan, are u coming out soon? I've been going to e loo twice - with a 2.5hr gap in between. Is this a certain pattern that is a sign of your arrival? Jialat.. I can't tell becos my tummy doesn't really hurt THAT bad.. Can't be my fish soup lunch that is making me visit the toilet ever so often rite... :|

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While we have quite serious problems with our nation'a public transport system, it doesn't mean people should take out their anger at innocent bus drivers.

Two days in a row that I've seen bus drivers being scolded (or some might say verbally abused). Yesterday, a driver turned off the air con for a while becos a passenger said the temperature was too cold and the bus driver could only turn it off as he couldn't adjust the temp. Thereafter another passenger came and scolded the driver for suffocating him by not turning the air con on. Poor driver tried to explain but the passenger just didn't listen and got upset. Today, another poor driver had to get people to move in a crowded bus else the automatic sensors at the door would detect a human and not let him close the door. Ignorant passengers didn't listen to him and just stood where the sensor was, and the doors couldn't close for a while.

Sometimes I really think we, as passengers, ought to be reasonable and fair. Certain things are beyond the poor person's control, so don't vent your frustrations on him/her just because he/she is wearing a uniform bearing the company logo which you dislike.

I think people are really not considerate and ungracious these days. If not for the fact that I'm heavily pregnant and likely to fall in the bus, I would have given up my seat to either of the two old persons that have been standing near me. Others around me are just blind - Singapore's one of the nations with high myopia, but I think we should classify them as blind (or socially blind). How can you not see these two elderly folks standing for so long?! Even if you are glued to your smart phones or gadgets, surely you can see them from the corner of your eyes!!

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Little Jonathan, Mommy concludes that you like to move and find yourself some space whenever I sit down. Haha! Mommy's tummy not giving you enough space huh? ;)

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Hmm the strange numb feeling on my left thigh is back. Felt it for the first time yesterday at home and it came back today during lunch.. :S hope it's nothing wrong

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Jonathan, haha are your exercising in mommy's tummy today? You have been moving and kicking for the past 3hours.. Time to take break and rest yah. Mommy also needs to rest and not keep seeing her belly twitch so abruptly. :) but that said, it's nice to know you are having fun inside my belly too!

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Of all days that the office toilet runs out of toilet paper and/or is clogged up when I'm having bad tummy ache. Arghh!

Dear Jonathan, mommy thinks you are growing well and squeezing my bowels more actively. Haha I don't really know whether to be happy that you are taking up a lot of space in my tummy and making me visit the toilet ever so often. :P

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Thank God for His many blessings each day!! :D Dear and I got our HDB ballot number last nite and this morning two kind Samaritans helped me navigate thru a packed train to a seat that one of them gave up for me. Hee hee.. Feel so blessed and well looked after by God. PTL!!

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Junior! You are weighing 1.2kg today and doc says you are growing well. Yay!! :) Dad and I have also decided on naming you Jonathan as you are a gift from God. May you grow to be strong in faith, a person of wisdom and righteousness, a man of strength, mercy and love. Can't wait to hold you in our arms!! :) :)

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Haha I'm on MC today and turning on YouTube to play Sunday school songs hoping Junior can hear them. Haha! I'm even sourcing websites where I can download the songs and burn into a CD for him to play at home or in e car next time. Lol.. I'm thinking too far ahead.. But I'm still secretly hoping he can hear the songs that I've been humming to myself :P

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Junior! Yay we saw you again last Friday! Haha you cheeky little fella, kept staying in your comfortable position and hide your face from Daddy and Mommy..

Anyway, everyone is very excited about your arrival! Both your grandmas have taken out all the baby clothes, bought you things like books (even though it'll be a while more before you can read). Haha!

Next time when Daddy talks to you or puts his hand on Mommy's belly, give a good twitch or kick to let Daddy feel yah. :)

Continue growing healthily, normally and happily in Mommy's ever-growing belly yah. Remember to talk to God in your own way too.

Xoxoxoxo,
Daddy & Mommy

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Junior! I can feel u move and kick for the first time today! Haha no longer mistaking your kicks for my growling stomach :P let Daddy feel u kick some day too okie? Love u and continue growing healthily, normally and growing in fear of God yah :)

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Miss the length of my hair during the period of our Bali photoshoot. We looked so radiant and non-tired.. Hair, grow back!!

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Envious of people wearing nice fitting dresses... I also want but I look so mum-sy now.. Bleah.. Emo emo...

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God, thank You for watching over Junior, helping him/her develop properly in the womb. Pray that Your hand continue to be over Junior, help him/her grow strong, normally and properly. Grant Dear and I wisdom that comes from You to know how to care and bring up this gift You've bestowed. Pray that Junior will grow to be a person that loves You dearly and loves the people around him/her. :) Amen!

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Junior, u better absorb more food from me today. Ate lunch, have a farewell muffin and I'm going for dept tea in a short while. Haha, absorb more so that you grow and not I grow alone :P

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Junior, we saw you on the ultrascan yesterday! So amazing. Cld see u swimming, moving and stretching inside me. God's creation is amazing :) continue to grow healthily, properly and become a person after God's heart k! We will see u again in 3wks time. Hopefully u are bigger and show more 'stunts' when we see u!

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Junior, do you not like tea with milk? How come you react so quickly after I drank it and make me go toilet?? I've already totally abstained from kopi. =)

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Being pregnant doesn't mean I'm an invalid. I still can do simple chores that are not strenuous. Don't treat me too nicely cos it feel darn weird and at times frustrating. I cannot possibly just sit around and eat all day. I'm not a pig to be beefed up and then sent to a slaughter house. I still need to move an exercise. At this rate I'm going, doc will say I'm unfit and I need to do simple work more often. Feel so stifled. Trying to make myself transparent cos I have to stand around and watch others do the simple chores for me, as if I'm an invalid and can't do a single thing. Pls treat me normally..

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Oh man, so suay. Eat breakfast also meet my auditee. Haha think they panicked and thought I'm back at their office today.

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Shucks I'm like having a junk food and potato chip craving all the time. Even after I took some Indonesian tapioca chips from Florence this afternoon. Bad fats bad fats..

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Shouldnt have taken bus 106. It winds a longer route..

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To my dearest dearest hubby who makes my morning journey to work ever enjoyable, comfortable and easy: 谢谢, arigato, gum xia, merci, danke. *muacks!*

I hope u are reading this soon ;)

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We go way way back to Pri 5 days

Long time buddies since Sec 1 days

It's been a long time since I took the long journey back to Boon Lay station. Almost forgot how painful and arduous the journey can be. I'm so tired, hungry and just plain brain dead. And I continue looking forward to the day I develop superhuman powers to teleport myself.. *poof!*

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Ops I realized some typo error in my post on Milk Toof.. The characters are Lardee and Ickle! Lardeeee.... Wheeee...

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Toof bath time!

I love My Milk Toof a lot... Soo adorable! Larder and Ickle!

Yet again some inconsiderate people who can't seem to hold e lift door open for the slew of people trying to get on. Still don't help tap the access pass so that everyone else can press the lift button for their floor. Fed up. Spoil my morning. Already lugging the friggin heavy laptop around..

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So tired.. Work late everyday and still have tons to do.. How how how?

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Other than my hubby and the guys in my family (yay!), I think most Singaporean guys are ungentlemanly. They just rush towards the bus exit once they sense you are making your way out of your seat to alight. Else they don't hold the lift door open for colleagues who try to get into the lift, and rest of us girls must help to hold the lift door. What's wrong with these people.. *faints*

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Saw a car stopping in it's lane to let an ambulance change lanes but a very inconsiderate n impatient van driver started horning at e car. What's wrong with people! Can't they see that it's an ambulance for goodness sake? The ambulance's flashing lights and siren are turned on!!

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Some people are just so atas. Cannot eat normal food court type or hawker centre food.. Haha I'm on save money for my honeymoon plan so eat cheap!

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iTODAY: Woman dies after injection to her buttocks at American hotel

Seriously, why would anyone want butt augmentation?! 

From iTODAY:Woman dies after injection to her buttocks at American hotel

| Feb 10, 2011 6:00 AM

A 20-year-old woman who had a cosmetic injection in her buttocks died early on Tuesday, prompting a police investigation.

Detectives said the woman and three companions travelled from London and were staying at the Hampton Inn in south-west Philadelphia.

Two of them had their buttocks enlarged in November and, on Monday, one received another injection while the other had a hip augmentation.

Paramedics were called when the woman later complained of chest pains and trouble breathing. She was taken to the Mercy Fitzgerald Hospital where she died.

The police are seeking two people involved in the cosmetic procedures, which were believed to have been arranged over the Internet. AP

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iTODAY: Chewing gum, now with vitamins and herbs

This sounds strange..

From iTODAY:Chewing gum, now with vitamins and herbs

| Feb 10, 2011 6:00 AM

Beyond tasting good and freshening breath, chewing gum today increasingly promises dental benefits, such as whitening and strengthening teeth.

Some brands like Extra and Orbit even carry seals of approval from the American Dental Association for helping to reduce cavities.

Now two brands, Stride and Trident, both from Cadbury, are including ingredients with vitamins and ginseng in their products.

Each piece of Stride Spark provides 25 per cent of the recommended daily allowance of the vitamins B-6 and B-12.

Vitality, a Trident sub-brand, has flavours with Vitamin C, ginseng, mint and white tea. The New York Times

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I can't wait for our honeymoon in Espanol (hmm did I spell it right?)

Tapas, Gaudi, Spanish fest!!

Another 2 months before we fly off :) :) :)

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Feel like an Ah Lian, listening to Like A G6. Tsk tsk.. It has e ability to make me wake up in e mornings

Oh btw, so shiok that this is CNY eve and no one seems to be at work or school! Trains so empty and the air is filled with anticipation to leave work early so that one can head home for reunion dinner. Sweet..

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It's so strange seeing an Ang Moh speak perfect Singlish

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Sigh, I'm like extremely frustrated this morning and trying to bottle my frustration becos it's not nice for ppl to know. Why why why am I spending time on seemingly less critical matters? Argh. Why cant we be forthcoming with people? I hate second guessing people's thoughts. Argh. Just suck it up and push forward.

If I'm a less responsible person, I may be happier like other people..

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Yay it's Christmas again!! My favorite holiday of the year.. Wish that one day I can spend Christmas in US or Europe - have a taste of how Christmas is like in other countries.

Anyway that aside, I've been thinking about Christmas and what it means. I've been finding myself getting caught up in getting presents; whether for close ones or to 'return an obligation'. Am I missing the whole point when as Christians we are supposed to celebrate and focus on God's sacrifice of dwelling among us, sinners? How do we strike a balance between reflecting on the real meaning of Christmas and enjoying the joys of shopping and festive celebration?

My DG has two baptisms this Christmas and my office colleague also recently had hers. For each of them, I hope this is very special to em. Having gone through quite a bit to convince their parents about being a Christian, or just having the guts to proclaim their face despite the real challenges of facing the consequence of family rejection and disapproval, I admire them for their courage and fire. I only pray that this fire doesn't die out as they journey on this path with Jesus, to remember this fire they once had when facing difficult questions about their faith some day down the road.

Press on Joy, Ivy and Wansin!!

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Gosh I am over welcomed with sleepiness and tiredness..

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I've never been so tired for an extended period of time. Even audit during peak period (which was practically my entire 1yr there), wasn't so bad. The intensity during the day is just tremendous. It's killing all my appetite for proper meals and frying my brains into ashes. I know it's probably unprofessional to complain in a public domain like a blog, but I reckon only my dear reads and not my bosses so this is still a 'safe' space to 'unbottle' my frustrations.

Today was bad. Got scolded twice and just plain rushing n rushing. I've sighed heavily for countless times. My dearest colleague who is usually the most optimistic girl among the lot also almost cried when we were discussing work. She also almost cried in front of her own superior during staff appraisal. Sigh...

I tear but nowadays it just dries up in office. No more blood or tears to shed. Capacity running low..

Where is the light at the end of the tunnel... I feel like those Chilean miners stuck in a dark hole wondering when will we ever see the day.

Think it's better for everyone that I unbottle in the cyberspace so that ears are spared from all these sob stories.

I really hope that there is truth in 明天会更好..

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Pissed pissed pissed. Bugged by everyone in office for work which are all considered urgent at the same time, attending to calls consecutively, responding to tons of emails... Even got shoved around and stepped on while taking public transport. So tired and brain dead. ROAR! I hope this is the end of the worst day of my wk!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot take it anymore!!!

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Sigh, just lead a very difficult topic on righteousness at my DG and had someone sit in to observe. It was so tough trying to manage the grp, keeping it relevant and juggling with the extra pair of eyes from an observer. Tough tough. It felt like a wasted session becos ppl didn't seem engaged and the message was not put across. Argh.. Having YT around is much better to balance off the dynamics..

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What do you do when faced with a situation that you know someone and find that they are not doin their work properly? Keep mum and hope someone else notices ad thus be politically correct, or what? Hmm....

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Extraordinary ambidextrous drawing skills

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfV9UROo7Dk&feature=youtube_gdata_player

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Japanese Precision

Check out this video on YouTube:

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Very very shiok to be on leave and not looking at my laptop for 10hrs straight. :) happiness.. I wish paid leave never ends. Yeah!!

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Hmm I used to think tattoo were cool. Maybe small and intricately done ones are nice but not huge ones. Thank God I didn't go one when I was young and rebellious. Haha never not listen to old people's advice. They are usually grounded on some form of truth or experience. Haha luckily I chickened out and didn't get myself tattoo..

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Think positive thoughts. Can't wait to see my pork chop. Lol

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I feel like a walking dartboard all over again. Reporting to several small bosses and being arrowed to do more work becos I'm the most junior person on board. Why why why.. Doesn't make a difference even when I'm promoted a little cos I'm still most junior compared to the small bosses. Sigh.

God grant me strength. I've told my immediate boss that I'm bait swamped and shared with him the extent of my non-core work that I've been assigned. While he said he will step in to help reassign if I cannot cope anymore, he also cautioned that it's too early now for him to talk to other bosses and pull me out of those work. What the heck. If I start doing those other work, my two legs would be deep in and all the bosses will then say hard to let me go cos there should be continuity. Alamak..

Anyway I just have to see how it goes. I will still tell them I need to get married and go on honeymoon. Just too bad they always forget that I've told them about my personal commitments and given them ample notification.

Tired tired. Why is every job like that...

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My parents possess the most amazing ability to drive me absolutely nuts and just shell shocked at what they can do to make me pant with frustration.

At every stage of the wedding preparation (and I really mean EVERY) they come up with ridiculous ideas about how things should be done, utter things to other people without first checking if that is what they should say or whether we've made the necessary preparations, nag that I've not done any planning (c'mon we've done A WHOLE LOT of planning way before they heard it. I just didn't wanna bore them with the details or go through the hassle of convincing them that things should be done a certain way which is most efficient) etc etc etc.

I know they are excited that, well, firstborn getting married and all. But c'mon, I'm getting married and I HAVE A BRAIN to think and work everything out. Pete and I have done soooo many other ppl's wedding that we know off the top of our minds how to do all these things. Go and see if any other couple is as chill out and well prepared as us. I bet you never find any others.

It's really freakingly irritating that they will pop up with the most ridiculous matters that makes me look at them and go "WHAT ON EARTH WERE YOU THINKING".

Argh, I will deal with what I can and leave them to deal with those beyond me..

Spoil my otherwise happy nite when I just drove home and smiled stupidly when listening to our 2nd march-in song over the radio. Wanted to blog about happy stuff but this stupid thing just drove me nuts and changed the whole tone of this blog entry..

Can't imagine that we are going to be married before family and friends in 1month and 4days. So surreal and exciting.

Had a good break with pork chop yesterday cos it's his off day before YOG work notches up another gear. Nice day of just moving around JB together. =) haha like a mini holiday

I seriously can't wait for our honeymoon. Yay!!

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Distributing paper flyers is not environmental friendly. I wonder who reads them. I just take becos I think those uncles distributing them want to finish their job and return home soon.

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Decided to take the train from Boon Lay today instead of going back to Pioneer station so that I had a seat. Gosh the train was uber crowded! Ppl squeezed shoulder to shoulder. I even had trouble trying to grab my tissue paper from the bag when I sneezed.. *faints*

Maybe it was a blessing in disguise when I sneezed so much and continuously that everyone avoided me. Haha! So I had a "circle" of space when everyone tried to avoid sneezin woman. Hahahahaha! I discovered some new tactic to "buy" myself some personal breathing space on peak-hour train rides..

Signing off cos I'm heading into the underground train tunnels.. *ah choo!!!*

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I'm getting the pre wedding jitters. So much to do and I hope to start hiving out duties for our helpers. We cannot possibly see to every single detail anymore. I will just trust that all help will fall into place and we just focus on the day and saying our vows before God. So gun cheong until my heart pounds fast at the thought of all undone work. Our emcees and band don't even know what do to or play! Ahh!!

Some ppl can really talk and talk and talk. Was trying to get some much needed rest time on the train to work. But was unfortunate to be beside 2 ladies who continued endlessly about their school, registration for something and what not. Now I'm extremely tired and about to collapse into slumber anytime..

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I just can't resist myself from posting this up. Had so much fun trying to do a digital scrapbook for our wedding photo montage. Haha, my favourite one for tonite.

Gotta start scanning more of my pictures cos I didn't scan enough of my own. Haha, so I've been doing Dearie's one first.

Ahhhh why am I up awake and in office when the weather is so good! I feel so lethargic with these kinda rainy days. Makes me wanna head home and sleep. Yikes.. Sleepy sleepy. Have been dreaming every single night that I'm sooo tired when I wake up. Even sleeping earlier doesn't help. Sigh. I need beauty sleep. Totally hate waking up in the mornings..

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Quote of the day from FB - one of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you once thought was unquestionable (or should be unquestionable).

So pissed. Persistent cough doesn't go away and keeps coming back when I get agitated. Terrible night. Tires but can't sleep. Sitting up against my bed and my bronchial asthma seems to be coming back. Crap. Angry. Wish I'm staying alone so that I don't have to feel so bad for coughing and disturbing everyone at home. Try to cough softly and stop but cannot. Time of the month coming also and I can feel myself snapping at myself. Sounds stupid but true. Since I should not snap at anyone else, I'm snapping at myself internally. Grrr...

Prayer written by Bishop Dr Robert Solomon:

Lord, draw me to yourself as I behold Your cross. May my ears be sensitive to Your voice amid the noises of this world. Let me be grateful for what You have done for me. Give me courage to do Your will. Amen

Tires tired tired. Ages since I exercised so much and did the (almost) complete set of gym routine I used to do with Nicole.

20mins of running at 8.9, 100 sit ups, 45 arm lifts (whatever you call that thing you pull from above your head to shoulder level), 45 leg presses, 45 leg lifts and another 45 thigh push (or whatever is that thing you stretch thigh muscles). Still short of the bicep press, lifts, ab lifts and plank exercises. Can no longer finish all of these within 1hr..

Legs were so tired that i froze in the showers and took ages to walk back to office. Bleah..

Shall aim finish the complete set within 1hr in future. 2 more mtgs to do it. Possible??

Happiness.. Enjoying the pockets of time at work where I can breathe, think slowly and have a more balanced life. Had thought that my work would be very bad at this time since I have to write a report, coordinate some things for Internal Audit's checks on the dept as well as handle the project work. Was kind of crazy a while back when all 3 pieces of work came crashing at the same time. Thank God that things have spread out and I don't have to work OT all the time. Thank God for granting me His strength to moe through each day and energy to work.

Tires tired tired.. Keep dreaming about random things at night and spoiling my sleep. So tempted to take half day and chill out. Reached a point of siandom with then thought of having to work. Think it's not about the nature of my work but just not wanting to work..

Feel like I'm back in my childhood days when I'm sick and my nose is completely blocked. It's stuck no matter how much I try to blow it out. Yet I can't sniff it back in. Aghhhh..

So now I'm just sounding very gross and un-ladylike becos I'm very nasal and having nose problems.

Wonder if I should sit up and sleep, or jus sleep with my mouth open so that I cab breathe but risk making my throat very dry by tomorrow morning. Hmm...

Anyway medication is kicking in and I'm feeling drowsy again..

Welcome home dreamland!

Tired tired and more tired frm looking at my work. Eagerly waiting for
the say to end. I can almost concuss at my workstation after this
morning's mentally exhausting, ad heated argument with the external
party. Shiong.. Still have two more of such sessions to go..

God grant me strength and perseverence this day..

Do bosses know how mch work we have on our plates and are they
reasonable enough to push away less important things? We are short on
headcount and yes effort has been made to hire. But the fact is that
we are still short handed in the interim. Why still ask for so much to
be done?! I've already said that I cannot turn around my work fast
enough.. :( I've even been blatant enough to ask them which piece of
work is more important and how fast thy want to turn around. Blah. All
so idealistic.

How to make bosses talk to one another since I've got multiple pieces
of work and reporting to more than 4 bosses during this period?!

It's not as if we are doing something which is SOP and we just need a
pair of hands to get the job done. More often than not we are talking
about dealing with situations we've not dealt with before, and so
require brainstorming. Argh. Brainstorming takes so much work and mind
juices!

This is probably a spur of the moment comment but I'll still say it. I
wished I was inconsiderate, selfish and not a team player. Just opt
for going on fed course and just extend for a holiday. Then I could
perhaps avoid all of these mental stress and not have more white hair.
But I also know of someone who wished she's not going so that she
doesn't have to uphold some gentlemen's agreement to stay on for
another 6months. Well done deal and there is no point complaining cos
I will still be around and deal with all of these in my stride.

As me and my sad colleague always say - suck it and just do! :(

First, have to squeeze with ppl who are sweaty and not smelling as
nice at the end of the day. Then cannot get up the train even though
it's supposed to be school holiday period. Aaaaahh, why is our public
transport system so over worked. Wonder if other major cities in the
world is the same. I might only appreciate what we have until I've
experinced worse..

Signed off by the woman who always has some gripe abt Singapore public
transport system. Lol

Hmm I'm surprisingly upbeat even after I leave work. Morning was a
huge struggle (yes I'm increasingly like Melissa. Completely not
morning person) and my energy level increases after that until abt mid
nite before my brain crashes down. Then I become a vegetable for an
hour before my energy level comes back up after 1am if I watch tv.
Haha.. Body clock so not suited for normal wrking hours. So strange
because I've been consciously sleeping at midnight. Haha..

Anyway I'm super excited that I'm leaving office earlier than usual
and without some mental baggage that I've gotta be early on office the
next day to clear more work. Things for now seem manageable and
actualy do-able.

*thinks hard*

On days such as this, I'm thankful that I'm working where I am. Shall
not say for sure that I feel like this everyday. But good enough for
now :)

Hmm sometimes people really do quite strange things.

I just saw a lady curling her hair with a curler, put on make up,
dress up in the gym toilet. Did all of these while standing on sky-
high heels in the ladies toilet which has clean floors. Wonder why she
bothers to make herself endure such stress from the heels, as her
whole dress up process was so long. I saw her when I first changed to
hit the gym, and she was still there after I finished working out,
bathed, packed my gym gear and left. C'mon, this woman even brought
her full hair curler set to the toilet! It was as if she as going to
the gym for some photoshoot of a girl on a date. So weird!

Thought it was mere coincidence to meet such a strange lady cos most
of the ladies I see at the gym are normal folks. Then came lady number
two. Let's call her GI Jane (she looks like a female version of GI
Joe). She went into the changing room and started whisperin to
herself. It was as if she was having a conversation while alone in the
changing room! Mad!

What's with people these days man! Too stressed up from a city
lifestyle.. IMH might just get busier with the passing of each
generation of city dwellers.

Tired, very very sleepy, blister on my toe, carrying heavy laptop and
jus plain grumpy.. Bah!

Went to Chen Li Presbyterian church this evening for a talk by an
Aussie youth pastor on re-thinking youth ministry of today.

Really very refreshing and a reminder that I still have the heart more
for the teenagers (even though I admit that there's some kind of
generation gap now) than the young adults. God has opened my eyes
during my period of service in YZ to see the immense potential of a
youth and what he/she can do for God. It's quite unlike a young adult
whose thoughts and ways have already been very fixated in a certain
way that it's hard for them to even change for God.

While teenagers could be thought to be brash and wilful, it's also
this very strong passion for things that make or break. Spur them onto
the right path with God and it is likely that these life principles
carry them through life.

Yes, there is the issue of how strongly do young adults cling onto
these life principles they learnt during their teens when they star
facing a whole slew of new decisions, circumstances and temptations. I
won't profess to be good at it as a young adult myself. In fact, we're
all on the same path of self discovery and lifelong learning and
experincing God. But what I know was that I can look back and say with
more confidence that it was no mistake serving Christ actively. Even
if it meant a lot of hard work juggling school work, CCA and church
ministry/ activities, I never forget how dearly I clung onto God for
everything in my life. To learn from Amy Chan about discipleship, to
learn from Pei Fern that crying for the lost is not a sign of personal
weakness, to learn from Zhiqiang and Dav the passion that drives them
to sacrifice much personal time to build relationships with us in the
journey of disciple making etc. The list goes on..

What I am saying is that we do not lose focus of why we serve and what
is our ministry is. To be Christ like, both in thought, word and deed..

Think I've had a bit too long a break from hectic and stressful work
days that it's hard to get back into the groove. Either my mind
panicks or it slips into a state of daze and inactivity.. I'm quite
screwed for this year's appraisal. Hmm then again it might be a gd
thing and I'll cruise through. :P

Met up with George and Chao Pak last night to look at the wedding
photos we took at Bali and also George's Singapore shots that he took
for us.. Wow, George really put in lotsa effort to look at the photos
and edit them. Truly his passion. But can see that it takes a toll
when he's also juggling with a full time job and being a young parent.

Hee hee phototaking (both taking of others and being taken) can b
quite fun. Of course, not professional or good model to know what to
do. But the fun is doing silly faces and laughing at yourself when u
see them. Taking of others is also to capture moments which strike u
when u are at some place. To snap the essence of the people, place and
atmosphere.. Nice.

Anyway, thank God for providing all the little things for the wedding.
Etc, church venue, friends and family who help us out, contacts for
good and cheap deals, wonderful photographers both in Singapore and
Bali..

Signing off frm my dad's cab while I make my way to church... :)

Whee! Iphone blogging works! Yes, I'm a tech-idiot. I just learnt it. Whatever.. Now I can blog on the move! LOL

Hmm my first attempt at posting direct to the blog frm moi iPhone!
Testing 1.. 2... 3.... Ready??

Today is yet another reminder that I shouldn't take things for granted.. All things fall into place not because of our fantastic or flawless planning, but all things are held together by Him. Just as He holds the heavens and earth together, He too holds all of us up.

The omnious clouds this morning dampened my heart because it was not ideal for pre wedding photos. Amazingly He answered my prayers and cleared the sky and clouds away! George and crew were great too! Great eye for nice shots and lovely company! We really thank God that He just let this opportunity for a shoot to happen..

Although Dearie met and accident (because someone collided into his car while he was stationary), I still thank God that he was safe. Very proud of my Dearie to be able to collect his emotions after dealing with all of it and rushing to church, and still be able to go on with the shoot. You rock Dear!!

It's our prayer that the insurance claim will go on smoothly. Pray for justice to be served by God and that the motorcyclist would be truthful in his report. Pray also for the pizza company to be reasonable and objective in fulfilling the bumper replacement costs.

I don't know what would lie ahead of us. Whether the insurance case would move on smoothly, whether this would be done amicably. But I know that all things are in His hands and I have to surrender it to Him. I trust that the Lord will see to that justice be served and the innocent would be rightly treated.

Not my will but Yours Lord.. Thank you for all that you've freely provided to us..

Sometimes you can be just so frustrated at your dad for not being a normal dad. Why must he always interfere with me life? I'm getting married and not him. Why must he invite so many ppl until I've gotta now manage n settle his lan tan zi?! Told my mom this morning that it is not an easy number that we can manage. But no one understands!! Now we've got a big problem becos of my dad's wonderful idea to invite the whole world when the church cannot even cope with it.. I feel like scruyying off and just get married in Bali or somewhere where it's jus us and no one else. I'm so frustrated at him that I just tear uncontrolably. Why must it turn out like that? Shouldn't everyone and or families be happy?

I'm gonna be very insistent for once in my life and make sure what we plan goes thru. Enough of them controlling my life, telling me what to learn, what to study, what to work as.. I think no other person would be as guai and not talk back.

I will make sure I don't cry when I start arguing with them. Old enough and they must just let go. (sometimes I wonder if they would've been more relaxed if I studies abroad or stayed in uni hostel through out the 3yrs)

Hmm hv been trying to find an iPhone app that allows blogging. Somehow wordpress and blogwriter lite doesn't support blogspot.com sites.. So here I am trying it out frm blogger.com directly instead.. Wish me luck..