Was so fricking pissed off with my incompetent FYP tutor yesterday. How on earth can she, being a PHD (permanently head damage), actually tell us things that are wrong? To think that she's supposed to be an expert in statistics. She actually smoked us by telling us things that aren't theoretically sound. Goodness gracious me.

And here we are, slogging our guts out to finish running those statistical things and she's having her one-wk break. Refuse to work or meet us in her office. What the hell. And she's supposed to guide us in our project.

The worst thing is that she can have 2 project grps doing exactly the SAME thing, running almost the same statistical test, and yet she doesn't tell us those instructions she told the other grp. Come one lor, we will also need to know the statistica treatment for the same variables. We end up discovering our own errors, all without the so-called expert help. Somehow it's plain evident that she's more helpful to the other grp. She can be so sweet n nice to them, answering all their queries; and yet be so grouchy when we ask questions politely.

Grr, all we hope now is that the moderator marker will see how critical we are in making sure our work is statistically sound, instead of blindly following some PHD's instructions. Like what chock said, wonder how are we supposed to acknowledge her help in writing the appreciation portion of the report. @#!*

Overheard some ppl complaining how the master budget assignment is so hard while sitting in FAL waiting for Wen to finish printing her notes. Strange that everytime I hear this, it makes me wonder what have I been doing for the past couple of yrs.

Evil me secretly laughs at them for having to do those dumb assignments, and suffer during recess week. Maybe they're having the last laugh cuz they needn't do their FYP eventually. And here we are slogging away and hammering SPSS. Who on earth wants to do anything with SPSS?!

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Weird also how ppl can dream of other ppl they met back in JC. People whom they're not close to, and are just plain "smile and hi" acquaintances. It's even weirder to have to see them in sch and remember that the night before, you just had a dream about JC life.

How do dreams come about? Interesting thing to note and know. But for now, I think I'm quite happy having a nice sleep and dreaming about quirky things everyday.

Had an interesting Sunday being an extra for Ah Bao's filming. As usual, I can only do extras work. Hahah I can't act for goodness sake.

Things work out so much more smoothly after you win some accolade and get industry players' attention on your work. More advanced equipment, experienced actors (finally! haha no longer the usual grp of friends who stand in to act) It's really so different when experienced actors come to do their job. Give them 15mins to take their first look at the script and there you go! Class act of being a fierce mother who caught her daughter with a Japanese man.

I was kinda impressed by the Japanese guy's chinese. Haha although he really fumbled and had quite a lot of bloopers, he pronunciation of some chinese words are quite amazing for a jap. Oh if u're thinking he's some Takeshi or Takuya material, forget it. He' looks more like Nicholas Tse (according to the actress who acted as the mother) but I really cant see how they look alike. He's so pretty that I think his profile can pass of as a girl. Haha...

Now, the lead actress is really so darn cute! Ahem, I'm not being a pervert to say it. But it's the truth. Totally can't imagine that she's a 22-yr old when she's absolutely so cute looking and petite. Haha she looked so funny in the oversized school uniform. We all totally agreed that she can really pass off as a Sec1 kiddo in uniform. Can't imagine why she has sucha ah beng boyfriend (who accompanied her to the set) in reality. Sheesh, what's wrong with the girl?

Anyway they're gonna continue filiming until all is wraped up on Sunday. Hope all goes well and I can follow n watch them film again!

The whole europe trip has its ups and downs. Sometimes we're on the brink of just not planning and going for Contiki, others we're trying to squeeze out the best time for the travel dates. My dear heart cannot take it so much. I'm dddyyyyiiinnnnggg to head down to europe. Anytime I'll just pack my stuff and go off now. Sch's a total dread and bore now.

A big waste that not all the ruggers are going for the trip. Sheesh, it would've been a total blast if the whole team went. Absolute madness and fun! Oh well, I'm still estatic to be going with Wensi. Too bad Ted isn't going for the trip. Hmm if not Dave might have joined us together when we meet Yam at Nottingham. Nah, it's still a blast to travel with Yam. Hopefully the timing's good for her as well. So that she can bring us around England.

Still can't imagine that the long wait since yr1 is actually materializing soon! Choi if there's any other things that come by our way to stop us from going. I've even started asking Jian Hong to lend me his backpack.

My only source of joy and anticipation during this dry period of piles of work in uni. Aike!

CNY was the usual drill. Visit the regular extended family and distant relatives, have the usual huo guo at a family friend's place etc. But guess this yr was kinda different.

Sat there listening to those old ladies talk abt their life stories. Kinda cool, but that's it. I can only listen. Can't utter a single word of dialect. Hahha.. I'm not ashamed of myself. My grandparents understand chinese, so that's good. Heh heh..

Did some silly stuff with my younger cousins on first day while at a grand aunt's place. Can't imagine how I actually tried to help my teenager cousin take some photo of one of the girls at the place; just cuz he had a bet with another friend that the girl looked like his male classmate. Gosh I even asked him whether it was a compliment/insult to both the guy and girl. But hey, my first fooray into voueyerism (argh, whatever. I don't know how to spell it) Haha stupid trick trying to msg with his mobile held high up. Duh.. I actually told him just to ask the girl to take a picture with him. Haha but as usual, my cousin must act cool (to match his dark and bad boy looks) and not resort to blatant photo taking.

Wonder whether he won the bet with the lousy photo I took. Hmm.. Time to ask him and get my treat if he did win.

Somehow we all look quite different from our younger days. Just had a good laugh with my cousins and bros at how we looked just 5 or less years ago. Gosh, we all looked so plum and nerdy. Haha thankfully everyone has grown out of that dumb dumb stage. In fact, I think my cousins are gonna be the ladies men in time to come. Haha I'll start teasing them abt it. Anyway I'm sure they're gonna get it during CNY from all the aunties. "Wah you've grown up so much. Leng zai oh.. yah da yah da..." Hahah I'm sure they'll just smile and grin. Hahah, finally they've grown up and I'm not always talking the kiddy talk with them anymore.

Have a look at your kiddy photos and have a good laugh over the wk.

Much as I love Desperate Housewives, the new commercial totally irks me. What on earth are they doing with those apples? It looks like some high-class porn ad, that is just a more sophisticated version of the new OSIM iGallop ad. Hai, what happened to interesting and family-friendly commercials? Juicy has became juuuu-sayyyyy. My goodness.

Too much cereal and heaty stuff has made me sick. Argh.. Sore throat, mild fever and the ever runny nose. I look like a wreck now. Feel like sleeping all day. But what the heck, I still have to do the PA report and write up on my part for FYP's lit review. Sometimes I wish I can just lie in bed all day and not talk to anyone.

It's been terribly rainy for the past couple of days. Makes me wanna snooze and snuggle under my trusty blanket all day. Rotting inside and staring at my ceiling. But yet I also wanna start on my cny shopping. Bet my mom is gonna start nagging at me for doing last minute shopping again. It happens every year. Drats. End up with impulse buys that I don't wear for the rest of the year. Guilty... Haha!

Anyway I'm really looking forward to travelling with the ruggrats this year. It'll be quite a year of travelling. Wanted to join the youths for another mission trip in Thailand. But at the rate I'm going with the higher budget for Europe, I guess I'll just have to give it a miss. Sob.. I kinda miss the rural parts of Thailand. Simple people with nice smile. Not as humid and sticky as bkk as well. Nice smelling air with more interesting food!

Back to Europe. Can't imagine the long wait is coming so soon! But honestly, I'm quite clueless at all the planning. My first time trying to plan something, from getting tickets and accomodation, to the itenerary. Gosh. So much things to do. I'm sure it's gonna be tons and tons of fun!

Xiao wants to go London to absorb the World Cup fever (we're going right smack during that footy fever) Kinda exciting but quite apprehensive about those notorious football holigans in London. Yikes, I better support England during my stay, altho I dn mind Real Madrid (with the ever interesting Raul Gonzales) Hmm, Europe's coming close! Stand by!!

Amazingly, all of us have survived yet another year. Time really passes all so quickly. We're yet into another year, another phase of our lives. Hmm wonder what's to come for 2006. All I can say is that I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO EUROPE!

Everything's not set, not even where we wanna go. I'm all for Spain but we may not go cuz Yam has already went there. So maybe Greece? Not sure, but who cares. I just wanna go for a backpack! Haha.. Many more backpacks to come during the lull period as an auditor!

Gonna meet my favourite ladies at Holland V later on! Great! It's always fantastic to chill out with em. Too bad Jac and Yam aren't back to join us. Next holiday girls!

Had a nice catch up with the guys and their new found friends at KAP yesterday. Elliot's leaving for Auckland on Monday so it was like a mini gathering cum farewell for him. Sheesh, it's been like more than a decade that we all knew each other. As usual, we took our annual photo. Kinda funny how all 3 of us happened to wear red. Argh and I had to stand in the middle of 2 giants. The photo looked so weird, but haha interesting! A valley in the midst of KAP. Must get my hands on em from Elliot's cam.

Talking abt red. Guess I've always got tt little rebellious streak in me. Went to highlight my hair today. Wanted orange or blonde, but somehow I ended up choosing red. Sheesh, the first round of highlights was so subtle tt there was no visible difference. So the lady did it again for me, and gosh all hell broke lose. I've become an ah lian in less than 1/2 hr. All bright red, as tho I dyed my whole head instead of a mere highlight. Thank goodness the lady said tt after a couple of washes (probably in a wk's time) it won't be so red. Hahha..

So here it is, i've become a red-head. Sheesh...

Merry Christmas to everyone! Much as it is a season for parties and fun, pls dn drink and drive. Hai, because of you guys who drink n drive, I've been deprived by my dad of driving today. Argh. Can't even drive to church to meet the rest for their bbq. He asked me to take public transport if I dn want him to send me to and fro. Ack! Why would I want my dad to pick me up when I don't even know when I'll leave?

So drivers out there, pls not drink and drive, don't get into accidents. I may get a chance to drive soon.

And what on earth is the whole Narnia craze about? Is it really so nice? Can't imagine 2 different groups of ppl asking me to watch Narnia with em just over this Christmas holiday. First it's the YAMers who are watching it tonite, then the YZers on the 27th. Nah, not my cuppa tea. Another time my friends.

Dinner's at my place tonite. Wonder how I'll die of boredom tonite. Hopefully not. Maybe I can play mahjong with my neighbours tonite.

Uncle Richard's coming over tonite as well. Good to have him over for the gathering, rather than have him recuperate at St. Luke's all alone. More the merrier for gatherings! Wonder how he's coping with the recovery. Pray that God will restore good health unto him soonest. Push on, uncle!

Some new client at a new place. Not as bad cuz it's near civilisation. But the irritating client really sucks. He practically tries to avoid answering my question and glares at me for trying to bring him back on topic. Grr... All I ever do is complain behind their backs, but I can't do that right in front of the Financial Controller's deadpan face. Someday I do wish they fold up so that they're no longer the clients. Haha, evil me.

New client also meant new colleages to work with. Guess sometimes I just like to be cozy with my little bunch of ppl I know. No more new friends or acquaintances. Hard to edge me outta my comfort zone. Thank goodness I do OT with ppl I'm closer with. If not I'll just scream and pull my hair. We'll see what happens for the next few weeks.

Do hope that I get some overseas secondment or job. Get outta our tiny little island to see the world, get into how others live their lives yada yada....

Last nite's christmas bash with the company at Gotham Penthouse was all so boring. To think that I'm a non-chiongster saying it's boring. You shld've seen Yung Yung's face thruout. It was totally blank, a completely bored face. Guess the only little excitement we had was with the whole bunch of VTs taking our tequilla pop.

Haha, my first drinks apart from wine n punch was at tt boring place. Guess it was kinda stupid. Supposed to finish the whole tequilla pop at one go, but I stopped cuz I was resisting a long loud burp. How loser can I get. Oh well, what the heck. Hahah, it was interesting nonetheless.

Now I really understand what Song Wei means when no one goes for the bash. So boring.. The only time ppl screamed was all the VTs when Li won some lucky draw. Some kind of atmosphere.

Totally embarassed myself at work today. Shit man, I wanted to hide myself during that point. Don't ask me what I did. Wanted to dig a hole and stick my head in. Thankfully it's last day at client's place. Sheesh... Terrible start to my terrible day.

Guess it's Christmastime and time for a change in blog. Here goes a blog to my dog that was given away.. Rai.. Miss ya!

I was in town today and watched some street performers strut their stuff. Really cool. Not the breakdancers, but the guy who was beatboxing. Usually it's just the standard beatboxing (altho no one can really beat that which was in 8Mile) but this fella could actually sing and beatbox SIMULTANEOUSLY! Totally awesome. Too bad, the typical Singaporean didn't really give him applause. Guess he was not really driven by any adrenaline from the audience. Just a little part of the songs and he stopped. Ah... I wld have stood there to cheer if not for the silent audience.

Totally wonder who people can beatbox. It's a whole art on its own. How on earth can you make those noises from one mouth? It sounded as tho there were many ppl doing it together. Musical wonders from a mouth. Thank God for artistic people who can do such things.

The short bangkok trip over the wkend was great. Refreshing break from the usual monotony in SG. Not exactly refreshing in the literal sense cuz it's just too dusty n humid in bkk. But nice. I always like to see Thai ppl, even tho I got kinda ripped off by the hawkers at Chatchuchak. Ended up not buying lotsa, except for shirts for PA. Gee.. No bargains found.

This week's a hell lot of decision making for me. Not sure where I wanna go after graduation. Not sure whether I shld move with my previous instincts and rock the boat, or suffer on the dark side and enjoy the company. Yeah my parents think I'm kinda stupid to think that the team will remain, and that I'm sorta 'conned' by what ppl tell me. But then again, maybe I shld just go along and sign on the dotted line. Not sure.

Even as I prepare to make my decision, my mind's in a total mess. Every moment I keep questioning myself whether it's really the right choice. Should I submit my application tmr or wait till next wk? Shld I forego the prestige of being in PWC and join EY? Such a big gamble. Guess I'll just have to take whatever consequences that comes my way. Oh God, please let it be a right choice. One that I won't regret or look back again. If it's gonna be a shitty year, then gimme strength and patience to endure things.

Toss up: rock the boat and enjoy the reputation / remain status quo and be deprived of a life
As what I hear everyday from my colleague, "sign on the dotted line..."
Question is which company??

Almost lost my wallet today in the Jurong Pt library. Somehow I just left my wallet at the loan desk after checking out some magazines, and I walked off without realizing it was still on the desk. Was still telling myself that I might just leave my wallet there and lose it.

Wierd how things can just happen exactly how you predict it to be. I must have been a zombie walking around and not aware of my surroundings. Esp after a long day with En Shyang & Fion's wedding.

But really thank God for kind souls who brought my wallet back to the librarians for safekeeping after they found it on the desk. The librarians were also nice enough to call my home to try finding me (although I wasn't home). They also made an announcement in the library, but I left immediately after loaning the magazines.

Be nice if you see anything. Return them to the help desk. What you pick up might just be owned by yours truly.

There were a zillion kids giving out flyers and doing surveys along the streets today. Thanks to holiday jobs and irritating employers who are pouncing on cheap labour. Signing hordes of kids up to be surveyors and flyer distributors.

Irritates me a little to have flyers shoved into my face; people coming up saying "miss, are you singaporean?" Erm quite duh rite. Anyway, much as I understand how it's very pathetic not to have people take those flyers from you, it still kinda irks me that they're trying to give me something that I totally don't want. Guess people are also less kind when you're young and able bodied. Anytime some auntie at Somerset passes you the flyer, chances are that you'll take it from her.

Thank goodness our attachment doesn't require us to give our flyers, although it's also no guarantee that it'll be a fabulous job. We'll just pray and see what happens on day1 this coming monday.

It's really scary how things can turn out. Never in my life have I really blanked out during an exam. The last count was back in Crescent. Really freaky how it's so easy to crash and burn during a short 2.5hours that kind of determines your next sem's timetable.

Also a reminder for me to stick real close to God. Guess He really can't stand how I've been trying to run things my own way, relying on my own ways and not His. A wakeup call for me to look at my life. Better not play a fool with God, He can just pull you back from lalaland. Much as He's a God of grace, He can be really frightening when we incur His wrath.